You gave up on me

When I  was weak  just knowing that you are here gives me the heart to press on but in the span of time your love has moved on  most nights i lay and wonder why how who was my world just past me by my soul still searching for what you gave just a smile or how was your day in a time when much was strong you gave up and now i ask for how long was the feeling of emptiness in my mind to just hold you love you  please you all in the same frame of mind  but where are you now when my life need someone there you gave up on me I'm the one you prayed for in the past you never knew how long your payers did last threw your words you formed me shape me in stored in me all the things you wanted your man to be but time made a jump and you stopped so blunt and gave up on me now I'm forum and brought to life still looking for my wife but you gave up on me now what am I going to do with this life you gave up on me.Well if this don't move you well come kiss my lips put all out of me just make my heart run most do get this and they don't know how to accept when you talk sweet to them most just want you to kick the door down grab that booty and where is my blunt got a beer what you cook me and my ty got a game give you a kiss on the lips but give his side pieces a roll in her bed but them you won't give up on first thing you say I Don't why he do me this way! but i love him! Don't cry on google about how no good he is but you are laying beside him and still buying his no good butt as you call him all the beer he can drink all the weed he can smoke paying his non-support cashing in all your food stamps give him half getting your tail kicked because no food in the house what you say pastorsvoice??? yep yep I said it now come on you knew this all the time!

It no need to get mad at me but you should be pissed with yourself because this dude tells you each day what you know but will not accept but when  good man enters your life you kicks him to the curb saying some bull about he was not right but you are the one twisted you let that dick use you but when someone loves you your twisted mind say i can deal with him he to soft you count kindness for weakness why can I talk sweet stuff and you just relate to them oh my bad let me slap the crap out of you then tell you i love you now you understand that why can't we love anymore we need to wake up 

can you stand the rain

Good day mates time to flow with some words that will shake your soul what you know about this?

TROUBLE in your home on your job in your life! TROUBLE is a force that you can't see! Why? It comes with its friends doubt and panic some one who reads this i'm going to help you today with 

something most will not do. We take this as a game look in your life most say i don't have any trouble don't be so cocky because life has it way of breaking you down that you will see it coming but will not pay any attention to it until you are knee deep in it and wondering how did it get so bad!We have our ups and downs our good and bad but in the end we all is rats in the race of life! Some gets the cheese but most get a taste of balls to the walls of put up or shut up so many is just what you call FRONTS they talk a good game but when the heat hits them they fold like paper who got your back in this world? Who is there when they tell you that you are no good and you believe it? When are you coming out the box of TROUBLE? How many of you feel that you can beat life at it's game? CAN YOU STAND THE RAIN? Feel my flow on this together we can cross any ocean if you just take my hand! Never should you ever think that you have to face trouble alone why read the next piece!

For all that feels that you are at your ends close your eyes and let this work for you what is working a phase called TRUST ME I WILL NEVER HURT YOU! No matter how dark it seems we can make this happen if you only believe! Now you say believe in what? Who made the sun the moon the stars who place day and in time it was night who count the hairs on your head one by one and know the exact number? Who will wipe all your tears calm your fears number your years ? WHO? W ho can make you smile in the middle of your battles? Where is that one word that many speaks but most never knows? I am your peace that passes all understanding! Can you stand the rain? Where are you when i needed you the most? Look at your heart and you tell me is it black as night cold as dry ice hard as granted? How deep is your love? CAN YOU STAND THE RAIN ? Flow in my world and take this voyage to a place where you all ways know you are the star in my sky!Here look at this!

If you are so much in tune with yourself talk to me not to the world why would you post the trouble in your life on a posts when we can just talk face to face listen stop putting your troubles as the main focus and put your troubles behind you and just know this you have more for you than against you! 

peace pastorsvoice!  

demons of the past

 

please read this and know what it is really saying because you can live with someone all your life and still don't know them or how much they can destroy life happiness or the love that you have just to be whole we as people don't know how much we need each other we always say some dumb crap like we don't need anyone wake up and stop this nonsense if you don't need anyone why do you work? Or if you have your own business and no one comes then will you still say i don't need any one? We men will come out our mouth and say i don't need a woman how dumb is that when a woman completes you she got what you don't have and really needs don't get mad when she is successful got her own house ,car ,bank account and just want someone who is on her level we as black men need to get it together we are so behind in being who we are as the head of the home! Now you as woman need to stop trying to rule the man you make him feel useless that why he goes for that trick in the street because she lets him be a man because she don't care about you or your house all she wants is what you got so she hear what he is saying about you and just do the opposite and fool him like she is better than what he had when all she is just a trick read the next picture and i will show you your own demons!

Past mistakes and hurt brings you back to who you are some of us have got so full of ourselves that to hurt someone means nothing no more why do we treat someone in away that if we was treated like that we will cry for justice wanting everyone to be on our side when you didn't care how many people you used ,lied to,played,or just felt it was something to do kamara is something that come back double so look at your demons and ask your self if someone felt the same way about you how would you like it?

look at the world around you and ask this how long can this go on remember every one want to go to heaven but no one want to do what it takes to get there how can you love god who you never seen but hate your brother who you see each day? just my thoughts peace pastorsvoice!

look in my mind

Today a new man comes to you in this blog you will see the mind of a man who see that a woman

worth is more precious then gold most men might feel threaten by this why we feel that we is on top.

But what makes a man a woman! Most forget that their mother was a woman who raise them to be a

MAN! See my failed relationships has shown me that no matter how good you think you are the mind of a woman is a strong thing! Yes we men can think but while we are feeling all is well a woman is planing her next move and by the time we realize it she has already made her move and we didn't see

it coming! We feel if we lie enough or cheat all our life or act like we don't give a rats azz about you that what makes us men! Wow we been so wrong! See all this between us black men and women goes as far back as slaves! Now most might not like what I'm about to say but I'm a proud black man

who eyes has been open! We lost our rights when our fore fathers saw our women rape and beaten 

sold like beef in the store! We started treating our women as if they had no rights because we could

not see that they was the backbone of the black family! Most men will say we are the backbone of the

family but answer me this how many men gave birth to any child? Or how many men work come home clean and cook and raise children plus took care of his wife needs? See we got this thing twisted! Men will say how much we do well where is we at now? Not the head like we should be!

Take these three simple things and measure a man of 2016 by and see what you get! We have lost our place not because it was taken but because we don't fulfill the call to duty that has been place on us to do! Now it's not all our fault most women say how much they can't stand about a man but they do the same as we and is just as cold and don't care as the one they say they hate! How long is we going to go on thinking that we have to compete with each other to see who can hurt the most or how we are

not going to be played if you look at it we all lose!! That's why no one trust anyone any more! Wow

    look at that man spell upside down and backwards say naw! that is where we are NAW you won't have family,love,relationships,happiness,trust,faithfulness,commitment,or anything because every one feels like we can't deal with thing that we feel is not what we look for! My last words start loving

that what you have not what you want because if you stay long enough life will mold them into who

you need not what we want because man is never going to be great if we don't start see the importance of our women! peace pastorsvoice my mind on this matter!

 

lets talk about sex

Let's jump right in with a question? If the sex wasn't that great could you still love a person? To answer this many would say NO! But most don't get it if you want sex stay single! Because that's

all you are there for and no need to use the words I LOVE YOU that don't mean squat any more 

That's a phrase that people from my age on down have killed it! Most use it to get what they want 

and bam they are gone! Well if you are my age stuff don't work like it used to but if you care about

a person that part of your relationship can be treated where you can enjoy all. A person loyalty  truefulness and understanding will go much more farther then sex! Don't get me wrong it is a part 

but not the only part! Why? Try to pay your bills with it or go to the food mart tell them how much you bang and see how much food you get! Well look at this next picture and tell me what is what?

How do you forget that someone who you loved that only wanted you for sex not your mind or what you bring to the table or how much you care and then they really show you how their world is really. Most these days only see how much of a fool you can be so they can brag about what they did to trick you because you trust them! Lets laugh for a few I want you to be honest with your self when you look back you ask yourself what in the world was I thinking? I fell for a person who had great sex but not only with me my friends knew my rival knew even the one who called and ask for your mate on your phone that you is helping make payments on in your house that your mate had nothing to do with you getting your car that you let them drive because you felt like they really cared about you and last but not lease your family who told you not to do that but because you was in love you said I trust you bae! Oh how we get played for these four letters LOVE time for us good ones to wake up!!!!

TO ALL THAT MADE THAT MISTAKE LISTEN YOU ARE NOT ALONE THE BEST GO FOR A RIDE BUT I LEAVE YOU WITH THIS QUESTION [ WHY HURT SOME ONE WHEN YOU DON'T LIKE TO BE HURT?] PEACE PASTORSVOICE 

black men struggle

Well I sit here wondering where is our back bone? Most other races you see stick together and their

mates is their back bone the drive to have their family is what makes them work so hard to have.

But for the black man who we have? All is geared to stop his push to have a nice house nice car strong bank account and a loving wife. All that I just name we will show how we as a good black man or any man that is in this struggle but I can only speak from my stand point! First nice house don't get me wrong we have a nice house but a house is not a home with out love in it the mates of today is never happy with us they stay angry and say some crap as you can't handle a strong mate. How strong you really is when you can't see two incomes on one bill is way easier then one? All you know is how to put your man down see his faults never the good things he do and can be but our mates don't care any more! Nice car oh boy here we go as soon as one of us get a nice car our head get big we look  down on each other like a gun man with his prey in sight! Now we are better then you look at my car! remember the song I don't want no scrub? If I don't have a car how come now I'm a scrub? Strong bank account! Question to my black women if  I'm broke can you love me? Most will say hell no! But they for got this if you are my back bone together we can do anything if we stick together!

Now we come to a loving wife. Back in my mother day they stood by their man why they knew that 

if we work together we can have something that why they been married for 60 years but we ask this 

dumb question how can you stay with the same person for so long! Because back then a strong black women stood by her man not saying he did not do wrong because he did yes he cheated a lot that why

the women of today don't know how to be for real because their daddy or brother or some man was 

a dog so they place this on all men! But for us good men I say women you are just a wrong as those 

no good men so now we have a bunch of no good women who have fooled them self that I don't need no man! Us good men is left wondering what did we do wrong? We don't stand a chance with the way

our black women has become now I know many going to bash me for this blog but I can only write 

what is really happening today you look and tell me truth ! Last thing look at this!

Where is our back bone? Men might not say but they know a good women is the key to life!

peace pastorsvoice! good reading to all

confession of a fallen pastor

                                                   

Confession is good for the soul and I have to confess that for four years I was living a lie listen

Someone said I need to would write a book and this blog which would be my last until my book is done so please just read and let your heart be my judge because I WAS SO WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have let so many down who was counting on me to be the godfearing man who I am now but 

was not back then recently I gave my life back to god because who I was he has died and a new

person has came alive Eddie Roy Martin  is my name but god has being me to lean to Roy now

because Eddie has died! No more Jersey attitude see how cool I can be or how much can I tell 

you off! He broke me down and made me understand if the spirit is not telling you what to  do 

get ready to see how bad you can really make a mess of your life! Im living witness of how you

can think all is good when you really stink as a person no one cares about you! Listen god showed

me this week how far off I was from serving him! My life has been change to humble me to know

It's not me! I felt if I rag my butt off look good smell good keep my pockets full that I can be some

body boy was I wrong all that was a front to mask the true me and I really blow it this time! But 

one thing I can say to all that read GOD IS A GOD THAT SEE ALL YOUR FAULTS! BUT PULLS

YOU OUT CLEAN YOU UP AND SHOW YOU WHAT IS YOURS HE FIRST SHOWED THIS

 

And said SURRENDER ALL I heard it and thought I did until Sunday when he showed me myself 

and said again SURRENDER ALL I broke and realize that my talk my walk my style my swag

even my wants had to be giving up! And he spoke and said fasts for a day and I'll show you this

We went and a man off god look at me and said god is talking to you and all is over now I came

home and had no contact no mind but to do his will Friday I has something to do to complete my

task he have took my mind and took me to my new home and said go get it he took me to my new 

car he said sit your daughters down and ask them to forgive you for how the family is and he worked

a work! ALL JUST LOOK FOR MY BOOK ALL WOULD BE IN THERE BUT BEFORE I GO LOOK AT THIS AND I ASK ALL THIS TO DO FOR ME BECAUSE I REALLY NEED THIS

     GOD HAS FORGAVE ME AND GIVING ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO BE WITH HIM
CAN YOU DO THE SAME FORGIVE ME MY READERS AND GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE
                                                                         PEACE PASTORSVOICE