widow maker

WIDOW MAKER: How many know what that is? Heck, I didn't know until I woke up on March 23,2026 in the Mayo Clinic with five machines hooked up on me, a pump in my chest, and three probes in my neck. YES, all this was shocking! A widow maker is just what it says: my wife is supposed to be a widow! And I'm supposed to be six feet under! I had the worst one of a heart attack! And its name is THE WIDOW MAKER! Four of my organs shut down! Heart, Kidneys, Lungs, Liver! My brain was the only thing working! They had a pump in my chest and in my groin area called an Impella. The Impella sped up my blood flow, and the dialysis machine was circulating my blood. And this was 24hours!

 I had so many wires on me I felt like I was a machine! This doctor took three sharp monitors with a knife while I was awake and under a picnic table sprayed with disinfectant no joke, I'm not making this up! And he jammed them in my neck with no painkiller, no numbing of my neck, and I begged him to stop; it hurt that much! All my strength was gone; I lay there helpless and in pain! The hospital gave me painkillers after I got back from his place! I lay in that bed for so long I got bed sores and a blood sore on my head!

This is me before my heart attack I really miss me but I'm still here and I'm back at blogging so enjoy the ride! pastorsvoice! Shalum shalom!
  

how much do life means

QUESTION? How much does life mean to you? Some of us woke up with a pain that was not there when we went to sleep. But as we come out of sleep, we notice something is different in our body, something doesn't feel like it did yesterday. Now we begin to notice LIFE! Have you ever just set down and count the rain drops off your roof as they hit the ground? Have you ever just taken time to feel the life beating threw your veins, or noticing the sun's rays shining off the refection of a puddle of water across your yard. Life is something most people don't even notice until you begin to have a problem! Then here comes the complaints the whining the I'm so tired of this and this one is the most spoken, "Why me" Ok let's dive in deep to this. Most people go through life never noticing the clock is ticking, each day something dies, and our body experience the change, and keep on functioning to make up for what has died! We wait until we can't party, go and hang out with people who mind is not on life but on the moment. Then we have children who never asked to come in this world. But are here because of our lifestyle that's only lives for the moment! But death always shake the living as a reminder you maybe next! Or change come to stop your good time!

The word believe contains a word that describes our real look on life, look at the picture and what word you see? This word makes up 95% of our life because most of our lives are shaped on this word! We learn how to use this word when no one ever taught it to us! Our flesh has elements of its origins base in the beginning of time when sin became what we were born and shaped in before you were transferred from your father to your mother in that moment of thinking! This word really shows how much life means to us based on our action toward each other! The only time the real truth comes out is when we are put in a us or them situation! And now we notice life because of the choice that is not in our hands anymore! So how much do life means to you right now!

We follow these signs every day and lie to our self and say I'm alright! WHO ARE YOU FOOLING? SHALUM SHALOM! PASTORSVOICE! P.S I'm just a person with a lot to say!
 

Well another question!

Well let me ask all who is in leadership! Who is this? And to all is this a lie or truth? Let me show how much knowledge YAH has given! Listen I'm just a seed planter so let's flow! In the torah bereshith 14:18 this man who is not a Levite Yah called him a priest for ever! Ok to the apocrypha reader you find him in the 2 book of Enoch 64-73 he is also found in Psalms 110-4 and it's only 7 versus! But this is where you newly found Black Hebrews have not taught or accepted because it take the place of that old Mosaic laws! Hebrew history teaches us about all the laws that were given by Moses and Aaron, but was fulfilled by the renting of the temple in two pieces.  YES! the laws you black Hebrew have put back on the neck of the people who has been tricked again by religion!(due to familiar spirits) You are the new protestant movement! Because you teach great foundational history but you use that same history to control the people. "WOE TO THE SHEPARDS",  because when I don't follow, your traditions THEN you say "how can you be  a Hebrew or Christian or Judaism or Muslim or last but not the least one Catholic!  And say you are of them?" That's why I'm SET-APART not any of them who is controlled by religion!

 

Mattithyahu7:16 says "You know them by their fruit!" Their teaching gives them away! How is it "who the son set free is free indeed! But if I let you teach me I'm still bound. How am I free?? You say I have to follow the way of a people who Yah him self destroyed because they would not listen to his voice! In Yohanan 6:32 Immanuel told us that Moses gave you no bread but from Yah's doing! But as always we change and start what is called RELIGON! Sorry but the black Hebrew movement is called the new Judaism! The study of the laws of the Levites! BUT we live under a RENEWED CONVENANT  that includes both, one the foundation of what not to do! And the other shows what to do Psalm 37:37 tells you to mark!

This is the old testament perfect man! But we don't have a high priest in flesh anymore so if he was done away with how come his writing we put before Yah son's teaching? YOU NEW PHARISEES! Who hold on to Moses law not to teach what comes from not obeying but to set a standard like in Galatians 2:11-13 read it sometimes before you come with the law only! peace pastorsvoice! SHALUM TO YOU!

 

TRUST JUST A THING OF THE PAST

TRUST WHAT IS THAT? YES THIS BLOG IS BOLD AND 

BIG SO ALL WHO SEE IT CAN READ WHAT NO ONE HAS ANYMORE! HOW CAN YOU HAVE FRIENDS WHEN ALL YOU DO IS TALK BEHIND THEM AND PUT THEM DOWN! THEN SMILE IN THEIR FACES LIKE YOU CARE

SO MUCH. I'M JUST A SMALL FISH IN A BIG OCEAN. BUT WHEN YOU HAVE DRANK SO MUCH BULL IT MAKES EVEN THIS SMALL FISH PISSED! SO I KNOW ALL YOU BIG FISHES IS READY TO PUT YOUR FIN IN A HEAD! CHECK THIS OUT AN READ IT CAREFULLY !

NOW DO YOU SEE THIS 90% KEEP A HIDDEN KNIFE WITH YOUR NAME ON IT! BUT ONLY 10% IS REAL WOW NOW I'M TALKING TO THE 10% BE AWARE  SOMEONE CLOSE TO YOU IS ABOUT TO SHOW YOU WHO THEY REALLY ARE AND DON'T BE SURPRISE!

  Yahuah said put your trust in me because man will fail you! Why put trust in a liar??

NOW DEAL ON THAT YEAH I KNOW PEACE PASTORSVOICE NEXT TIME BUT NOT NOW

feeling what next?

Ok what is next? This is for someone who is at the cross road of what next? Many get here and blow a good thing because they pick the wrong path. Each time you know that you want to do this but you play hard to get thinking that I don't want to show them I want them or that i'm so easy! What in the world??? People need to stop with the bull about playing hard to get because all a player will do is chase you until they get you and then blow you off like a piece of rotten meat that they made that way threw the games and stupid ways they treat you and you are left saying WHAT NEXT?? Why tease a person why lead a person on why act like you don't want them but inside all you think about is them?WHAT NEXT?? You go and play this game of checkers a move for a move? Lets blow this bull right now life is to short for mind games you don't draw me into you by a freaking playing with my mind!!

 Change my out look with your words your actions your present make my world spin round and round make me hear bells take my soul and never let it go why make me feel like a king but treat me like a peasant? IF i'm yours then when this would be me each time when this happens to me lol!

Do you feel butterflies when you see my call? Forget the butterflies in my stomach when I see my mate name forget the butterflies the whole zoo comes alive in me and all bells and whistle goes off!

And I just get so kiddie and do the happy dance do any of you know about the happy dance ????

 Thanks for just being a person who know how to understand a person who are in a dark and be the light!!!! peace pastorsvoice! with love!!

Have you been played!

This is for all who feel like you been played well well its not a good feeling when you do your best
and they take you for a fool! But you can sit down and cry about it or show that mutha what they
missed see it ok to get revenge but then they can say we even! So here's a tip from a sucker let's
take the stick out and get sticky with it get fly as you can find someone who looks better than them
these days post as many happy pic of you and their replacement and watch the magic! At first they
won't say much but after while I don't care how hard they try to be something is going to be said
and when they contact you this is what you say YEP I MISS YOU NOT! SIKE WAIT NOPE DON'T
MISS YOU LET ME CHECK AGAIN! SORRY THE NUMBER YOU REACH IS NOT IN SERVICE CHECK THE NUMBER AGAIN! Don't let people get the best of you i'm like this now

Why worry about something that was not is not and will not give a rats ass about if you care. Me
I don't care any more if you don't want nothing well you get nothing you can't make a hoe into
a housewife because she still got the hoe in her! So when you find a hoe leave a hoe no matter
male or female a hoe is a hoe and none is good for the house because all you doing is what we
call share a hoe if you say no then she know how to hoe so the only way to get over this is

this is your relationship any Question peace pastorsvoice say's so! good day mates!

deep in my soul

Who will wipe my tears? What will break my fears? In a day it will be a new year! Every one make these clams on how to be better.How to do better but in realty the one thing change is the year the same demon come right back if you don't get together and try to just love! They always say you hurt 

because you been hurt but that is not true most hurt because it makes them feel powerful or in control

or to promote fear in some one who cares about someone who is just using them! The ones who do the hurting will boast about how they can't be weak just to care! Most men won't show that they care because to them it make you weak or gay! Well i'm straight but one thing I can say the gay mens show there mates how much they care and the only thing most men can say is they got sugar in their tank but at the end of the day love always find them why they do care! Don't toot your horn women because you have become as cold as most men you are beginning to do the same thing you fight so 

hard to stop from happening to you but you do the same! Wow how fickle is womens and then you have the balls to say there is no good men anymore! Why should a man be good when the woman is up to no good?HAPPY NEW YEARS RIGHT? When it gets happy i'll let you know Ok you tell me I'm happy do you care about the ones you hurt just to think how happy you are? look below and think

Now who will change this year? Who will make a difference?Who would just for once stop just thinking of themselves! And just show anyone some real love not that lip love but from the soul!

This year is in your hand make a difference in someones life just leave a mark of love not hate my 

rant is over I bid you peace pastorvoice!