dark shadows

Most people ask me why don't you smile? If they can only see the cuts and the beat downs the pain 

I hold on the inside always rejected put down hurt lost and confused! They take your kindness for 

weakness! How many time must we hurt before you can see the pain in our eyes of being left alone

abused not knowing who or what is for real or not being played and used by the one you trust with 

your heart trying to find something that don't exist! Every one but you have the power to say oh well

but you can't say oh well because it hurts bad when they say you fail and all the time your life is a dark cell of doubt fear nothing never clear when you are fighting back your tears because you let someone hear how dear the way to you but now it gone and nothing you say or do can change the scar that tore you apart when you we just now mending you heart and now its back to the start where

it fell all apart and no matter what you say or do this love thang never makes it to you! Just a dream!

How can you feel so bad about someone you never had but you wanted to show them a life you never

had! I wish that I knew my dad but family I never had! And you asks me why so sad!All the time 

alone even when its a room full of people never fitting in! Here comes those dark shadows again! 

How can you say get over it when you don't know my pain? Have you walked in my shoes? 

Have your life been torn apart so bad that each night you can wash your face with your pillow

because the tears has soak the bed? Each year you say it will get better but each day the dark 

shadows take your life for a ride that no matter how hard you try you just can't get away? WELCOME TO MY WORLD WHERE PAIN NEVER LEAVES AND A SMILE IS JUST A MEMORY! PEACE PASTORSVOICE MY PAIN RUNS SO DEEP!THAT I SEE NO END!

new beginning!

Well I was ask to write about new beginning well trust me you is not going to like this one

How uncomfortable it is the first time you met someone they try to act all hard and confident 

and on their game but most women will run this game! You take them out they will see how far are

you willing to go knowing that to them it a game they play well you be sweating bullets but they know if they got to fart they will bust a gut holding it in until they is alone! Yes its good to be on your game but why in the world would you bring those old demons that made your last relationship

crash and burn! You say that you care but you treat them like your last! Get a new way of loving 

them stop taking them for granted get off your butts and stop saying they must understand because

we don't have too! But because we want it to work we let them treat us like everything is more and 

more important then being in love! Then why waste my time the same crap just a different face doing

it. Listen to me! Stop the bull if you get a new beginning learn why the old did not work it was not all

the other person if you don't paid any attention or so little how do you expect to keep them? How?

If you notice this bull blowed from his butt lift this clown up by his butt pin him to the wall face first!

Most is asking what is eddie up to now this is what up! All the crap you been threw will sneak up and

bite you in your butt and when your face is on the wall the first thing we say what did i do wrong ? 

Ready you did not look at how much you took them for granted Stop thinking of your self only what 

you feel what about the one who is trying their best to make a new beginning listen it great to be needed but oh boy if you is wanted did you hear me wanted every thing in you will get that want listen at this a lot need a new car but will deal with the old one until but if you women want i say want a new hair do you wouldn't care if bonquisha from down the street can hook you up you want

that hair do or if you want a to have a better start stop acting like it don't matter about how they feel

Make time for love because one day you is going to want it but you ran out of time please get back

to loving with your heart not just your mouth peace pastorvoice! 

  

cold and raining want to cuddle???

It's been raining on the east coast for a long time you can't go or do much in this weather hey i got
an ideal let me and you find how warm ours bodies can get together let cuddle! Now for the ones who is fine all by them self good for you do you but this is for the warm touch of a hand strokin your back kissing on your neck lickin that spot that makes all the nerves in your body twitch! Not yet we are just cuddling and exploring each other touch! On the couch in the bed on floor on the table where ever i can corner you at! Time to make your blood run wild in your veins!But most don't know about
that because we live in a wham bam thank you ma'am world no holding no kissing no rubbing just get it and keep it moving! But the rain got you home so how about get in touch with the lover in you? Well as for me all i can do is write about it why my bed is big and empty all i have is hopes and dreams that one day someone will spend their every moment with me let me be the first to kiss your
lips and say goodmoring! This rain has spark a feeling of want to be hold in me what you think?

I really am jealous when i see two people so close they look like one why because i'm a hopeless romantic! Yes yes love me a warm body in my arms to stroke your hair investigate your body just stop and look in your eyes so deep that your soul says take me i'm yours! But people is to busy for love sex yes love nope last one on this rainy day how many will agree with this today????

 what you think give you a good warm bath and put you at ease and the make you feel like this!

  peace pastors voice!

i'm not your man

Well sometime it's best to stay in your lane and just realize that it is a set up! What is I'm venting
about now? Someone asks you to go out with them! Wait I"M NOT YOUR MAN! How can you
get mad at me if we are friends if i ask you for some advice on how can I make a go at a long
distance relationship and you get mad what in the world is this? How can a dog fly? Or you who
never ever ever keep a man because you cheat on him and tell me your dirt think that I can be your
man?Let me ask all my readers this. How many of you get pissed what some one is talking about
how wrong a person is but they is doing the SAME THING HOW THE POT CALL THE SKILLET
BLACK WHEN THEY BOTH IS BURNED UP! You women throw salt at each other but then trun
around and do the same!How can you say the man is no good when you play just as much as he do!!
You say you want a real man but your hair is fake you put in implants to make you look like what you think we want! When once we bang you that all you got to offer look at this next post and understand the words that my fingers it typing out on this white screen okay read it now!

 

Upgrade your mind we need a smart woman to help us to grow and be the true man that is in us

remember you complete us you are our missing rib! Help me to get this paper two on one bill is

better then one! And I  hear this all the time Men can't handle a strong mind woman right? How

can we handle something that can't understand that we want to be wanted not needed because 

you say I DON'T NEED A MAN THAT WHY I ASK DO YOU WANT ONE OR DO YOU

WANT SOMEONE WHO YOU CAN SAY HE NO GOOD BUT I LOVE HIM ANYWAY

 LISTEN GET BACK TO LOVING YOUR MAN NOT OWNING A MAN AND MEN SHE IS A
QUEEN NOT A PIECE OF MEAT YOU BANG AND CRAP OUT YOUR TAIL BECAUSE IT
DON'T GO DOWN THE TOILET ALL THE TIME YOU FLUSH IT ROTFLMBO! PEACE!!!
                                                               PASTORSVOICE 

A ROCK AND A HARD PLACE OMG!

OH SO BEAUTIFUL SO BIG SO REAL WHEN YOU SEE THIS IT TAKE YOUR BREATH

AWAY YES WE GET SO CRAZY WHEN THIS HAPPENS OUR EMOTIONS RUN RAPID 

BUT I HAVE TO SAY THIS HAPPENS IN MY LIFE EACH DAY WHERE MY EMOTIONS

TO RUN CRAZY!THIS IS WHAT I CALL ROCK IN A HARD PLACE 5O CENTS ONEWAY

HALF OF A DOLLAR THE OTHER WAY STUCK IN THE MIDDLE OF A HARD WAY OF

LONELINESS ALL MY LIFE I CHASED A DREAM THAT NEVER GET FULL FILL WHY

ALL I WANT IS TO JUST FEEL THAT WANT I GIVE I CAN JUST GET IT BACK HOW 

MANY OF YOU GIVE A LOT BUT DON'T EVER GET NOTHING BACK OR NEVER FEEL

LIKE ANY ONE CARES? OK I'M WHINING OR VENTING BUT YOU KNOW I'M RIGHT

 

NOW YOU SEE THIS WHAT CAN YOU DO WHEN THIS IS YOU PEOPLE PUT YOU HERE!

HOW WITH THE WAY THEY ACT TODAY YOU GET ALONG BUT TWO MINUTES LATER ALL HELL BREAK LOSE AND THEN THEY ACT LIKE YOU DON'T MEAN NOTHING OR 

DID ANY THING FOR THEM YOU BECOME A STRANGER AND THEY DON'T CARE HOW

THEY HURT YOU OR TREAT YOU JUST AS LONG AS THEY CAN PROVE A STUPID POINT! WHO CARES THAT YOU ARE STUPID FOR ACTING LIKE A AZZ OMG! OMG!

 

HOW LONG IS THIS GOING TO BE YOUR LIFE IN AND OUT OF FEELINGS THIS IS COLD

  

get in touch with your star player!

                     

Good day mates what"s poppin in your world well as you see i'm getting in touch with me all this month my mind was telling me dude you lost who you is! Well this one is about that star player in you! Not one who play games but the one who is 100% back on his grin to have something now can you relate to that if not let me bring you up to speed listen that star player in you is the best you can be not a soft confused person who are letting weak promises game words fake i love you and the most thing I had to check my self on giving paper to people who game is to get all they can out your pocket and say ok you sucker! Today i'm just open no funny points just the facts to get you to see into my world for trying to show true love in this day is next to impossible because everyone is running so much game they don't know a good person if they is standing in front of them people this day just don't want someone who is true and loyal honest hard working who take care his home his kid by himself they don't want a good man all they want is a free ride never giving but always taking but hey that when you tell yourself this right here  is you can feel me on this well now that star is coming to the top yes!

See everyone got advice but you have to look in the mirror and tell your self hey i'm somebody who 

got alot to bring to the table and all they bring is a attitude and can you give me some money before

pay day they act like crap all week long but time as it get close to pay day now they show so much then! BUT THE STAR PLAYER IN ME SAY IF YOU CAN'T LOVE ME WHEN I'M BROKE YOU CAN'T LOVE ME WHEN THAT PAPER IS FLOWING IN  STORE IS OPEN BUT WE STOP SELLING SUCKERS HERE! No more will I be this any more call me or don't see me or don't my star player say's you can do bad by yourself! look at what katt williams say on this where you at katt?

yep yep yep just my words on my life so have one a good one peace PASTORSVOICE! 

why step up now?

Hey to all the faithful readers who puts up with my rants and sick points on how life is but today
We will deal on this issue of WHY WHEN PEOPLE SEE THAT THE GAME IS OVER Why now
you are ready to step up and do right? Why is it when you tell someone its over now they is ready to
be faithful or now they is ready to hear you? See most people do this they play games until you bust
them at their stupid games now they want to act right see trick or treat comes once a year and most
tricks think they is the treat when they really need to take a damn seat!Tricking is not easy when
your game is on the c-span network and that is so boring!! Old news for people who think they are so
smart that old news is good news how crazy is that to live your life two worlds behind! Why when that stupid trick you deal with call your house and say is my baby home! You need to thank her for
showing you how low can you go! Because its a known fact most men get a woman who look worse then the mate he has so why when she is ready to get you to that dog you say it was a mistake SURE
just take a look at this picture and watch how this thing open up to you just watch this

 Ok you got that WHY STEP UP NOW? Because you got caught in the most stupid lie that you try
to see how far can you smoke your mate! OK THIS IS My take on this once they feel like the water
is drying up out of their pool of happiness because you been told them that the pool got a crack in it
why wait until the good water is gone to try to fix a crack that means nothing now because all the water has left WHY STEP UP NOW SO LAME JUST PEEP THIS LAST ONE OK AND SMILE

IF YOU NOT RELATIONSHIP MATERIAL DON'T GET IN ONE BECAUSE YOU HURT MORE

THEN YOUR STUPID SELF BECAUSE SOME ARE REALLY LOOKING FOR A REAL MATE!

                                                             PEACE PASTORSVOICE!