look into a man's heart

Here in my room again 2:19 in the morning can't sleep mind is racing on how is my life and can my heart be fill? No not all men just sit and think of ways that they can please them self you have a few that love pleasing others no not cold and un-caring or just to get his rocks off this one have a heart that has been broken many times and understands the meaning of hurt and pain trust and commitment yes a man with feelings is what most need. But to get there takes time to know what is the importance of this thing we call togetherness now don't get me wrong I made some mistakes and hurt some people in my time but I learned how to show true love not just from heart but mind body and soul! True feeling can't be taught it has to be lived in order to show what is on the inside no this It's not just words that run thought my mind this is what I become in this life time! To see so much pain is my gain to be able to write these words. Just take a few and see where this is going! Most say we don't care but we do just not in the way most think! We hurt too but is too afraid to show it why that is a sign of weakness on our part and all we know is to be strong but it comes with a price many don't understand when a man cry or when a man needs to feel needed and wanted how so soft we really are!

Hey love is a scary thing why if you pour our your heart and give all you got and it's not good enough it damage you and next time you won't give anyone chance to hurt you when in your eyes all you see is the pain of failure but in their eye all they see is why don't you let me love you the way you need to be love hey I'm not trying to get brownie points or to get you to like me alone I was born and alone will I die! But to have a piece of what we call happiness takes a life time to get and when you get it how long to you have to enjoy it well as for me this is my plea that the time we have live life the best we can and the rest don't worry about why you don't have power to make someone love you all you got is time to show how much you care and if it takes a life time then it was worth my life to share last but not lease I go back to my room a wake and feeling alone why because the fear of the un known!

peace pastorsvoice!

chocolate moon

I'm just a person with so much time that my mind will race out of control to be in a place where life has stop is my chocolate moon! Life is non-excising here to smell life as we know it to be is gone. Now we go threw time as if it was a phase in space that you want to be alive but the quietness is all around you like a glove on your hand tight woven that you gasp for air and it tighten it's grip on you! See life is good when you can live it to it's fullest! But when you are trap between no friends no family no people that fits in having something well
it's gets hard to just laugh but so easily to cry even when no one did any thing to you! Hoping to break free but no where to go lost in a place that is closing in on you hey that your moon! No life nothing but space and time and all you have is you. Hey we get so lonely at times and even death don't come around no more! Well you ask why? Some time you can be with a lot of people and still be alone you can be in relationships and still have no one so we go threw this life putting on false smiles and trying to maintain your peace of mind but losing yourself at every step you take steady changing and not realizing that we are being control not by happiness only but pain also and the pain make us cold to feeling happy so we just do what we do best as people survive on the chocolate moon we call home! See below we are just dust put together until life blows you away!

      Where is your hole in this place is it fill with hustle and movement or just a place of hurt and confusion?
Well we like to be in control but at times we don't know what control is especially when all our path is control by likes and dislikes  how can we get off this moon in time before we become a part of just another stepping stone for someone else to feel that we are below them because our wealth and life style don't equal up to theirs or our color makes us to be less or our friends make us better? To look at my moon and know life is a bitch when you are not on top of your game hey this is a blog not to get sorrow but to open our eyes to know hey we need each other just to live here true spit! peace pastorsvoice!

 

hate to have

HATE IS ONE THING THAT HOLDS THIS WORLD BACK NO MORE WE BUT JUST ME!
Hey today me as a man got a real dose of you can't you try to better thing and most just hate the ideal,
the unknown is a powerful tool to just keep you down or to be used to hold you back but great minds
had to go threw the same thing but people hang around just to see what they can get then move on why?
We blame people for our own short comings when we need to blame our self.We are free to be anything
we go after yes this is me not loud talking but just knowing that you always need somebody  to be that
inspiration to move you forward yes this is me at the edge of my rock just wondering which way to go
when you give your best and that's not enough then deep in yourself you have to get more even if you feel
there is no more to give. Me just one who don't like to fail or let anyone down that feel like there's some-
thing special in that one wait and see! Hopes and dreams of a man who had to start over from scratch
time and time again the feeling that get in the pit of you stomach and make you sick of the fear of failure
to do something that most think is impossible to do but it eats at your soul to get it done you push youself
over and over until you can't go no more and come to the edge of you rock so what now?

How much is the power of one and who can measure how low failure takes you? What high it brings to your
road to be some lost slave to your own short comings? See I have been this way for so long sometimes it feels like i'm never going to get up because you tell your self why it will knock me down again so why try?
see right now I'm in a mode that fear is winning and you can easily say do let it but the power of one is
just that one and you feel lost and alone but just as life get a grip on you you say I'm not a slave to failure I can make this work I'm not for sale and you can't buy me at auction or on the block why my rock is steady and my mind is in high gear so this is deep and you can't reach it with your put downs and harmful  words
and shameful looks that you give when you realize that you can't stop me or hold me down to strong and to
wise peace pastorsvoice!

a bad fever!

Ouch it on me like a bad force that just take me

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MAN WHAT IS THIS FEELING THAT GOT MY FULL ATTENTION THAT MAKE ME JUMP HOLLA SCREAM AT MY LAPTOP AND TV THAT MAKE ME LOSE ALL MY CALMNESS ACT UP SO BAD THAT YOU WILL LOOK AT ME AND SAY I'M CRAZY ! WHAT IS THIS THAT TURN A GROWN MAN IN TO A PILE OF WHINING HIDING DON'T TALK TO ME NOW! KIND OF PERSON? HEY DO YOU HAVE THIS PROBLEM IN YOUR HOUSE? NOW HEY THIS IS THE BEST FEVER YOU CAN GET! WHY WOMEN SAY THEY DON'T LIKE THIS TIME OF YEAR BUT THAT'S A LIE LOOK BELOW AND SEE HOW MUCH THEY REALLY LIKE THIS TIME OF YEAR MAN YOU CAN WATCH THIS ALL DAY AND NEVER CHANGE THE STATION! YEAH!

THIS KIND OF BEHAVIOR MAKE A COOL CALM AND COLLECTED MAN ACT CRAZY JUMPING ON CHAIRS PUMPING HIS FIST NOT PAYING ANY ATTENTION TO WIFE AND KIDS HEY IF YOU WANT TO THEY CAN LEAVE ALL DAY AND HE WILL NOT MISS THEM! THIS IS WHY IT TOOK ME SO LONG TO WRITE THIS BLOG WHY THE FEVER GOT ME 19 MORE WEEKS THEN WE KICK IT TO HIGH GEAR THEY UNTIL FEBRUARY THEN ALL THINGS COME TO A STOP IN THAT MONTH WHY THE BEST FEVER WILL STOP ALL AND MAKE US LIKE SLAVES THAT WE GET READY FOR THAT DAY WHEN THE SUPERBOWL COMES ON NOBODY WILL CARE IF THE DOG IS KICKING CAT AZZ OR JIMMY GOT SUE BY THE HAIR OR IF THE YARD NEED WORK HELL BETTER CLEAN THE HOUSE BEFORE THEN WHY WE WILL DROP A BOMB IN A ROOM AND PISS THE LADY OF THE HOUSE OFF IN THE MORNING HEY PEOPLE FOOTBALL IS BACK AND RED ZONE OF NFL CHANNEL WHO WANT MY MONEY WHY EVERY GAME WILL I SEE AND CABLE CAN KISS MY AZZ AT THAT TIME WHY WE WILL BE KNEE DEEP  IN SOMEBODY AZZ ABOUT HOW SORRY THEIR TEAM IS OR BUST THEIR DREAMS OF SUPERBOWL WHEN WE PUT THEIR AZZ OUT OF PLAYOFFS!

NO FEELINGS WHEN YOU GET YOUR AZZ WHIPPED THIS YEAR JUST TAKE IT LIKE A MAN PEACE PASTORSVOICE!

make me catch a case!

False advertising it is one thing that will make you catch a case take a look at this picture tell me do this piss you off when you spend your money?

Burger King in one of the places that always advertise one thing and you get another. Time and time again we spend our hard earned money on crap that is not  real just look at what we always presented with take this pill lose three dress size shake this on your food and you won't get hungry and put this on And see a Slimmer and trimmer you! All this bull just to get your money that you work your tail off to get but get screwed each day out of it! How long does we want to be a damn sucker that take it! If we go in a office and say we can type good but can't type on all they will fire us or we say we know how to drive get to the DMV get the DMV instructor in the car take his azz down the road and wreck on his side then look at him and say I said I can drive but didn't say how good I can drive what you think would happen to us? Look at this other picture

  How can you tell me texting while driving kills then turn right around and say for more driving tips text safety to 79191 WTF? If I'm driving why would I text you if it kills?  See this is the kind of world we live in always offering us something that looked real good when you are offer it but when you get it is nothing like what they showed you and can't do nothing what they say then they get negative mad when asked for your money back what a double standard! If the police catch you on the phone and you are driving they would give your ticket right but you see them driving down the highway on the phone texting and nothing wrong! Or you will see them speeding their tail off just to go to a restaurant to get some food know lawbreakers is in their except at the buffet when you take the last piece of chicken leaving you standing there and mad because now you got to wait on them to bring more chicken

Now this is Walmart the place that brings you big saving they say having a sale but just look at that picture what do you see if a 12 pack was three dollars and they say you can buy four for $12 tell me if I'm wrong four time 3 Is 12 what are you saving now you got gas investing time invested how can you save even more we get screw every day but then they wonder why we don't trust the  advertisement is it just me or is you to next time you see this get that manager pull his butt to the advertisement and go to work on that azz why he is in on the scam and tell him this is your bonus that you get all your hard work peace pastorsvoice!

INVASION OF YOU!

Invasion of what heart, mind or soul most things invade our body through a terminology call germs but what is a germ? An outside invader! Only inside the destroyer controls thoughts can invade our mind and cause damage to our souls in the form of what is right to the heart and look deep inside you self and noticed there is a war going on between the host and the invader! Feeling is the most germ that we over look why is silent and deadly without warning it comes upon you and control your whole outcome. See we think we got a handle on this life but life is what? Who is controlling who? Feelings make you do crazy things when you want to let go you can't. Caught up in the  sickness we feel we are in full control but little do we know the invader is controlling us. Just like drops of rain from the sky if hits you over and over until it covers you !

The invader will come in and destroy all that you have work on to having a good live it will make you turn away from all that want to help and tell you that you is all alone man this thing! Will straight bum rush you so bad that it will have you crying went no one did nothing to you or no one is around! But you trust this cold moving thing that all it's purpose is to take control of you and make you be it's slave! It tells you every thing how to look how to dress he to feel how to understand how to walk ,talk, live, breath and most of all to die. Why give this outside invader full control of you? You don't think for your self any more it do! When you was young you had none in your body you was strong then you told your mama boyfriend he was ugly and ran off and laugh about it! You said it was nasty and did not eat it just to please nobody! You had full control of the house when you cry the hold house was at your beck and call! Watch this when you crap the whole room was put on blast! And all was afraid of who turn it is to change you! See this outside invader had not got inside until you mother and father  made a deal to sell you out to it and it came in like a flood to destroy who you was!

The way it was is long gone now! You had to deal with this each day because the invader is call FEELINGS SOMETHING YOU DIDN'T KNOW UNTIL THEY SOLD YOU OUT TO THEM ! MAN FREE ME OR TAKE THIS OUT WHY A LOT OF TIMES THEY IS WRONG AS HELL! PEACE pastorvoice!