What the hell happen to our independence? We is the most people who have forgot what the hell we have to help made america great! Wait great?Ok lets look at how great it is first the native american was tricked by the English speaking people to trust them never trust a man who left his land because they destroyed it by not respecting the sign of the land but will steal kill and destroy do that sound familiar? But as usually they did no wrong!Now no one is saying that the sons and daughters of the people is bad they do what they are taught monkey see monkey do yes all who read this will say i'm a monkey well how long it you going to play the monkey card I've have been called monkey,coon,nigger,blackie but never did any ever said a man!Never did i ever wanted to be a part of a race of people who don't give a fuck about anyone heck they don't care about their own race if it don't share their ideals! read this before you

now tell me how the hell a rapist who rap a women got her with child and admitted that he raped her come back get joint custody and visited the child home where he raped the woman at how do you even care about your own race this is pure bullshit not  only  is it crazy but no respect for any one ! My voice has been quiet for awhile but how can you even say i love my people but step on the ones who do not share your views?

its time for people to stand and say we are a people not a damn color put away your box of crayons and grow the hell up we need each other to survive listen what the hell do you have to lose! in trump words! do i like the devil nope but his words is what blind great thinking people to see the we is what you got to lose THE BLACK MAN IS AT STAKE SO WAKE UP!   

pastorsvoice: You Move When I Move

pastorsvoice: You Move When I Move: Well we know how this goes you move I move just like that but so many try to move at their own pace no rhythm! And the flow of a true re...

You Move When I Move

Well we know how this goes you move I move just like that but so many try to move at their own pace no rhythm! And the flow of a true relationship today I will give you the rules of this love game first before you do anything see how long you can just sit and hold hands and go deep into each others souls without making something that can be beautiful a mistake because you made the mistake of sleeping with them before you learn the rules of the person you holding the hand of. Can you move when i move? Come lets flow! How is it that motion is hard to understand when all you have to do is move to the same flow we make things so hard when we don't just accept the person for who they are as men we try to drive the pace and most of the time the pace is so off base! And as women stop re-raising a man and stop fooling your self he will change he has to grow to change not change to grow because if he change before he grow all you got is a boy acting like a man take it from one who has season with time! Hold on and stop faking it because your time is not to be wasted with a foolish game of chase

Ok now you caught me now what do we do whats right and get to know one another or do we just have sex and see what the next mess is? My head is just what its call a head but there is more to this story can you move when I move? Do you know the consequence of love?Will you fight for the right to have true love?Will you fight to be my love? Can forever become our new name? Look at this ok

Can you make the face of your mate look like this When I move you move! Bite this with the attention to please and to fulfill all the needs of these lips moisten these lips with yours lick and suck on them and then gently nibble on that bottom lips taste her essence and know her smell know her flavor ok!

now if they can why can't you? peace pastorsvoice!

COGNAC BLUES

   Cognac blues is what i choose straight up or on the rock! Nothing stops my cognac blues! Serve  me up some in my mind place one in my life one at a time oh what a sweet delight to me some dark brown cognac oh so good to me! Boy when i see it how it gets me in this mood when i taste it very very smooth just that quick i have fallen into this cognac blues.In the morning to see the sun rise on that pretty brown thing that got me so madly insane sweet to the touch oh how i love it so much just fill my life up with the good cognac.When did it teach you how to hold me didn't you pursued me in the essence of the flavor of time when we was just one. Some will never know how deep it is to be in love with some brown cognac dark or light all is so so right! Just look at this and maybe by the end you will 

Understand my cognac blues! So brown with a flow of strength of the crown all size all shapes all height or dept i just love me some brown cognac light or dark with ice or hot off the press give me some to cure my thirst this cognac in my life is so natural. It makes me smile just to hear the flow coming from the pour. Life flows threw its flavor.Strong straight up bold as a full body should be or soft and gentle when it on ice this is the cognac of my life just a few more lines to let you really know what in the mind of the voice that is flowing at this moment!!

  Yes yes i sure can use some of those blues that brown cognac blues! Come take a drink of that brown cognac sometime this cognac is so intoxicating that you dream about are you thirsty? To all the flavor of cognac out the my is in my life so get yours! peace pastorsvoice yeah cognac blues!

You gave up on me

When I  was weak  just knowing that you are here gives me the heart to press on but in the span of time your love has moved on  most nights i lay and wonder why how who was my world just past me by my soul still searching for what you gave just a smile or how was your day in a time when much was strong you gave up and now i ask for how long was the feeling of emptiness in my mind to just hold you love you  please you all in the same frame of mind  but where are you now when my life need someone there you gave up on me I'm the one you prayed for in the past you never knew how long your payers did last threw your words you formed me shape me in stored in me all the things you wanted your man to be but time made a jump and you stopped so blunt and gave up on me now I'm forum and brought to life still looking for my wife but you gave up on me now what am I going to do with this life you gave up on me.Well if this don't move you well come kiss my lips put all out of me just make my heart run most do get this and they don't know how to accept when you talk sweet to them most just want you to kick the door down grab that booty and where is my blunt got a beer what you cook me and my ty got a game give you a kiss on the lips but give his side pieces a roll in her bed but them you won't give up on first thing you say I Don't why he do me this way! but i love him! Don't cry on google about how no good he is but you are laying beside him and still buying his no good butt as you call him all the beer he can drink all the weed he can smoke paying his non-support cashing in all your food stamps give him half getting your tail kicked because no food in the house what you say pastorsvoice??? yep yep I said it now come on you knew this all the time!

It no need to get mad at me but you should be pissed with yourself because this dude tells you each day what you know but will not accept but when  good man enters your life you kicks him to the curb saying some bull about he was not right but you are the one twisted you let that dick use you but when someone loves you your twisted mind say i can deal with him he to soft you count kindness for weakness why can I talk sweet stuff and you just relate to them oh my bad let me slap the crap out of you then tell you i love you now you understand that why can't we love anymore we need to wake up 

can you stand the rain

Good day mates time to flow with some words that will shake your soul what you know about this?

TROUBLE in your home on your job in your life! TROUBLE is a force that you can't see! Why? It comes with its friends doubt and panic some one who reads this i'm going to help you today with 

something most will not do. We take this as a game look in your life most say i don't have any trouble don't be so cocky because life has it way of breaking you down that you will see it coming but will not pay any attention to it until you are knee deep in it and wondering how did it get so bad!We have our ups and downs our good and bad but in the end we all is rats in the race of life! Some gets the cheese but most get a taste of balls to the walls of put up or shut up so many is just what you call FRONTS they talk a good game but when the heat hits them they fold like paper who got your back in this world? Who is there when they tell you that you are no good and you believe it? When are you coming out the box of TROUBLE? How many of you feel that you can beat life at it's game? CAN YOU STAND THE RAIN? Feel my flow on this together we can cross any ocean if you just take my hand! Never should you ever think that you have to face trouble alone why read the next piece!

For all that feels that you are at your ends close your eyes and let this work for you what is working a phase called TRUST ME I WILL NEVER HURT YOU! No matter how dark it seems we can make this happen if you only believe! Now you say believe in what? Who made the sun the moon the stars who place day and in time it was night who count the hairs on your head one by one and know the exact number? Who will wipe all your tears calm your fears number your years ? WHO? W ho can make you smile in the middle of your battles? Where is that one word that many speaks but most never knows? I am your peace that passes all understanding! Can you stand the rain? Where are you when i needed you the most? Look at your heart and you tell me is it black as night cold as dry ice hard as granted? How deep is your love? CAN YOU STAND THE RAIN ? Flow in my world and take this voyage to a place where you all ways know you are the star in my sky!Here look at this!

If you are so much in tune with yourself talk to me not to the world why would you post the trouble in your life on a posts when we can just talk face to face listen stop putting your troubles as the main focus and put your troubles behind you and just know this you have more for you than against you! 

peace pastorsvoice!  

demons of the past

 

please read this and know what it is really saying because you can live with someone all your life and still don't know them or how much they can destroy life happiness or the love that you have just to be whole we as people don't know how much we need each other we always say some dumb crap like we don't need anyone wake up and stop this nonsense if you don't need anyone why do you work? Or if you have your own business and no one comes then will you still say i don't need any one? We men will come out our mouth and say i don't need a woman how dumb is that when a woman completes you she got what you don't have and really needs don't get mad when she is successful got her own house ,car ,bank account and just want someone who is on her level we as black men need to get it together we are so behind in being who we are as the head of the home! Now you as woman need to stop trying to rule the man you make him feel useless that why he goes for that trick in the street because she lets him be a man because she don't care about you or your house all she wants is what you got so she hear what he is saying about you and just do the opposite and fool him like she is better than what he had when all she is just a trick read the next picture and i will show you your own demons!

Past mistakes and hurt brings you back to who you are some of us have got so full of ourselves that to hurt someone means nothing no more why do we treat someone in away that if we was treated like that we will cry for justice wanting everyone to be on our side when you didn't care how many people you used ,lied to,played,or just felt it was something to do kamara is something that come back double so look at your demons and ask your self if someone felt the same way about you how would you like it?

look at the world around you and ask this how long can this go on remember every one want to go to heaven but no one want to do what it takes to get there how can you love god who you never seen but hate your brother who you see each day? just my thoughts peace pastorsvoice!

look in my mind

Today a new man comes to you in this blog you will see the mind of a man who see that a woman

worth is more precious then gold most men might feel threaten by this why we feel that we is on top.

But what makes a man a woman! Most forget that their mother was a woman who raise them to be a

MAN! See my failed relationships has shown me that no matter how good you think you are the mind of a woman is a strong thing! Yes we men can think but while we are feeling all is well a woman is planing her next move and by the time we realize it she has already made her move and we didn't see

it coming! We feel if we lie enough or cheat all our life or act like we don't give a rats azz about you that what makes us men! Wow we been so wrong! See all this between us black men and women goes as far back as slaves! Now most might not like what I'm about to say but I'm a proud black man

who eyes has been open! We lost our rights when our fore fathers saw our women rape and beaten 

sold like beef in the store! We started treating our women as if they had no rights because we could

not see that they was the backbone of the black family! Most men will say we are the backbone of the

family but answer me this how many men gave birth to any child? Or how many men work come home clean and cook and raise children plus took care of his wife needs? See we got this thing twisted! Men will say how much we do well where is we at now? Not the head like we should be!

Take these three simple things and measure a man of 2016 by and see what you get! We have lost our place not because it was taken but because we don't fulfill the call to duty that has been place on us to do! Now it's not all our fault most women say how much they can't stand about a man but they do the same as we and is just as cold and don't care as the one they say they hate! How long is we going to go on thinking that we have to compete with each other to see who can hurt the most or how we are

not going to be played if you look at it we all lose!! That's why no one trust anyone any more! Wow

    look at that man spell upside down and backwards say naw! that is where we are NAW you won't have family,love,relationships,happiness,trust,faithfulness,commitment,or anything because every one feels like we can't deal with thing that we feel is not what we look for! My last words start loving

that what you have not what you want because if you stay long enough life will mold them into who

you need not what we want because man is never going to be great if we don't start see the importance of our women! peace pastorsvoice my mind on this matter!

 

lets talk about sex

Let's jump right in with a question? If the sex wasn't that great could you still love a person? To answer this many would say NO! But most don't get it if you want sex stay single! Because that's

all you are there for and no need to use the words I LOVE YOU that don't mean squat any more 

That's a phrase that people from my age on down have killed it! Most use it to get what they want 

and bam they are gone! Well if you are my age stuff don't work like it used to but if you care about

a person that part of your relationship can be treated where you can enjoy all. A person loyalty  truefulness and understanding will go much more farther then sex! Don't get me wrong it is a part 

but not the only part! Why? Try to pay your bills with it or go to the food mart tell them how much you bang and see how much food you get! Well look at this next picture and tell me what is what?

How do you forget that someone who you loved that only wanted you for sex not your mind or what you bring to the table or how much you care and then they really show you how their world is really. Most these days only see how much of a fool you can be so they can brag about what they did to trick you because you trust them! Lets laugh for a few I want you to be honest with your self when you look back you ask yourself what in the world was I thinking? I fell for a person who had great sex but not only with me my friends knew my rival knew even the one who called and ask for your mate on your phone that you is helping make payments on in your house that your mate had nothing to do with you getting your car that you let them drive because you felt like they really cared about you and last but not lease your family who told you not to do that but because you was in love you said I trust you bae! Oh how we get played for these four letters LOVE time for us good ones to wake up!!!!

TO ALL THAT MADE THAT MISTAKE LISTEN YOU ARE NOT ALONE THE BEST GO FOR A RIDE BUT I LEAVE YOU WITH THIS QUESTION [ WHY HURT SOME ONE WHEN YOU DON'T LIKE TO BE HURT?] PEACE PASTORSVOICE 

black men struggle

Well I sit here wondering where is our back bone? Most other races you see stick together and their

mates is their back bone the drive to have their family is what makes them work so hard to have.

But for the black man who we have? All is geared to stop his push to have a nice house nice car strong bank account and a loving wife. All that I just name we will show how we as a good black man or any man that is in this struggle but I can only speak from my stand point! First nice house don't get me wrong we have a nice house but a house is not a home with out love in it the mates of today is never happy with us they stay angry and say some crap as you can't handle a strong mate. How strong you really is when you can't see two incomes on one bill is way easier then one? All you know is how to put your man down see his faults never the good things he do and can be but our mates don't care any more! Nice car oh boy here we go as soon as one of us get a nice car our head get big we look  down on each other like a gun man with his prey in sight! Now we are better then you look at my car! remember the song I don't want no scrub? If I don't have a car how come now I'm a scrub? Strong bank account! Question to my black women if  I'm broke can you love me? Most will say hell no! But they for got this if you are my back bone together we can do anything if we stick together!

Now we come to a loving wife. Back in my mother day they stood by their man why they knew that 

if we work together we can have something that why they been married for 60 years but we ask this 

dumb question how can you stay with the same person for so long! Because back then a strong black women stood by her man not saying he did not do wrong because he did yes he cheated a lot that why

the women of today don't know how to be for real because their daddy or brother or some man was 

a dog so they place this on all men! But for us good men I say women you are just a wrong as those 

no good men so now we have a bunch of no good women who have fooled them self that I don't need no man! Us good men is left wondering what did we do wrong? We don't stand a chance with the way

our black women has become now I know many going to bash me for this blog but I can only write 

what is really happening today you look and tell me truth ! Last thing look at this!

Where is our back bone? Men might not say but they know a good women is the key to life!

peace pastorsvoice! good reading to all

confession of a fallen pastor

                                                   

Confession is good for the soul and I have to confess that for four years I was living a lie listen

Someone said I need to would write a book and this blog which would be my last until my book is done so please just read and let your heart be my judge because I WAS SO WRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!

I have let so many down who was counting on me to be the godfearing man who I am now but 

was not back then recently I gave my life back to god because who I was he has died and a new

person has came alive Eddie Roy Martin  is my name but god has being me to lean to Roy now

because Eddie has died! No more Jersey attitude see how cool I can be or how much can I tell 

you off! He broke me down and made me understand if the spirit is not telling you what to  do 

get ready to see how bad you can really make a mess of your life! Im living witness of how you

can think all is good when you really stink as a person no one cares about you! Listen god showed

me this week how far off I was from serving him! My life has been change to humble me to know

It's not me! I felt if I rag my butt off look good smell good keep my pockets full that I can be some

body boy was I wrong all that was a front to mask the true me and I really blow it this time! But 

one thing I can say to all that read GOD IS A GOD THAT SEE ALL YOUR FAULTS! BUT PULLS

YOU OUT CLEAN YOU UP AND SHOW YOU WHAT IS YOURS HE FIRST SHOWED THIS

 

And said SURRENDER ALL I heard it and thought I did until Sunday when he showed me myself 

and said again SURRENDER ALL I broke and realize that my talk my walk my style my swag

even my wants had to be giving up! And he spoke and said fasts for a day and I'll show you this

We went and a man off god look at me and said god is talking to you and all is over now I came

home and had no contact no mind but to do his will Friday I has something to do to complete my

task he have took my mind and took me to my new home and said go get it he took me to my new 

car he said sit your daughters down and ask them to forgive you for how the family is and he worked

a work! ALL JUST LOOK FOR MY BOOK ALL WOULD BE IN THERE BUT BEFORE I GO LOOK AT THIS AND I ASK ALL THIS TO DO FOR ME BECAUSE I REALLY NEED THIS

     GOD HAS FORGAVE ME AND GIVING ME ANOTHER CHANCE TO BE WITH HIM
CAN YOU DO THE SAME FORGIVE ME MY READERS AND GIVE ME ANOTHER CHANCE
                                                                         PEACE PASTORSVOICE

   

simply smitten

     

How did this come out of the vault of saying?? We lets see how my mind whine this one up !!!!

A these years i been blogging not one time did anyone made me flinch is broke my guard or anything!And I watch many fall in love find them some and all but as of me and my blog was 

the same o same o thing! my words said no ones want a good man this was my pet pea's  big ups to all the daddy that read my blog ! It got so bad that i was hating to see couples so big ups to all the lovers that read my blog and to all so we offend no one yeah right yeah ok this right here is me  blogging but read what that black box that has a text in it and this is for ones that can't the words i there when you find someone who breaks you opens and make you feel things you fight for them! 

I'm fighting for a person who at this very moment is probably home feeling sick right now hey hope 

you get better need you! Simply Smitten  is a phase you used to express beyond hey what's up when you use that part someone is in trouble because some one done got him he can't see nothing right now

someone came and broke threw my guard and made me realize that you can be special to someone you didn't know! But all ready knew how to see right threw your toughest guard ans show so much 

that now you fight for them! Because they got me on a level  that i didn't see but we talked and talked some more until i had to asked who is you??read the next part and you see where some thing is going on

   They just made me fall so head over in love with her STOP RIGHT THERE I BEEN THREW ALL YOUR TIME OF HAPPINESS SHARE MINES pretty and smart  want to have something and got
her own! But this one i say this one is what all men who fish sorry i dont i just know this she is a keeper you don't let this one get away so at this time she is a sweetie in my heart but don't hate i been here for a long time isn't that right my friend Romeo love Keisha go giants! Michelle Parker Richard Martin  Ace burkhart and many more knew this was what kept me just wanting ! i was broken! but
now someone has said no he is taken and at any time do you believe in love at first word ! they type
something in my posted and off it went  again hope she feels better now! You get tired of people who
can't make  it easy to just love them???? Yes i said it just plain out love them but we know Jesus showed all the love he could but still no one believe so what am im saying believe and love one a other show the love and stop using things to hide our fears well I know this LOVE IS WHAT GOT US HERE But we don't have a clue how cold we are but first melt that cold spot in your heart so you
can love here is my last picture how many can really say that what you see is what you really are???

Yep its takes this to make one how long is it going to take before we see two cords is better than one!

peace pastorsvoice! deep i know but from my heart!!!! 

no temps or limps

What can we do when people all the time buckle under pressure see for the record there is a place i'm
going with this! Listen we posted stuff on the web and people comment on what you post right ?????
Why is it that no matter what you posted people will always be like this on the post" yes me too that right" HOLD UP HOLD UP HOLD UP  most of these mofo's don't know jack about the pain you are in most is only someone on the web they post fake picture of them doing stuff like they really be ballin when all you see is their rent money being spent or the other man re-ups money and you flash it like you so much well to all you freakin window shoppers fake flasher this blog is just for you you see them standing in a bar with all the happy hour drinks on the table where the drinks was buy one get one free and they only cost a dollar and some one else paid there way in but they take a picture  and post i'm making it rain in this mug!Yep he made it rain alright by asking everyone to buy him a beer!

I watch so many people will allow a fake buster come in there life eat the babies food up won't wash a dish in the place fuss and the lady when she work all day come home have to cook and clean take care of five children and he is just sitting there after him and ray ray smoked up the weed ate all the snacks poor babies can't eat the fruit loops be cause they caught they munchies then you pay someone

else to be with him yep yep you pay his child support and his baby mother is buying him the weed with your money give me a ticket man arrest me now right now because i m smokin now  to all who think you can get over on them all the time your time is coming to pay the piper! AND WHAT?

One more thing how how how can you women take it when your man leaves but his feet is still with 

you?? Or when you see him his pants is at his knee's and his draws is dirty with a brown highway in them and still smell like last night club but you say i love him WAKE UP YOU DIP NUTS!! OMG

PEACE PASTORSVOICE!

not what you see

After three years of blogging now the truth is to be told many know that at the end of all my
blogs end with peace Pastorsvoice many of the people who really know me says i need to take
that off because what i write and the words i used is not what a pastor stands for and they is
right because I speak my mind and my words is not what you would say to a church so now
up until two days ago my mind was like this f#@k you and who gives a rats azz about what
people think but someone peep out my life and brought to my attention that for three years
of running did me no good listen the real you someone will know it don't matter how much
you hide behind words or actions we put up fronts to protect yourself from more pain but
lets be real is that who you are heck2dano!So at this time I must come clean Im just a church
boy who was hurt bad I lost trust in all and did not care to get know anyone! And i got caught
up in trying to find a love to replace all the love I lost. How can you get back what was never
yours Im learning that what you think is yours really is not! All of us for some reason forgot this
the love of many will wax cold so who are you to think when you hurt someone you good?

in the beginning Moses ask god who can i say that sent me and he said I AM say I am sent you 

so when you hurt people or treat them like crap I ask you who sent you? This is for all who fit this

stop loving people with your mouth and put some I AM in it because most is not the person you 

see my love is deep because i love not with my mouth but with something most has lost a soul

love at first sight or just a phase how many still enjoy a walk or just the two of you star gazing 

love is not how good you are in bed because the phase love em and leave em is the game both play

the chase is great but most leave after the chase is over when the bang your brains out and go to 

say i bang another one why play games? listen read this and you be the judge of what is on this one

most don't know because they hide behind so much but as for me no more hiding and to the ones 

who felt like I was not worth your time well listen I'm a piece of coal under the pressure and when 

all is finish all will see the diamond they over looked but this is the twist I'm one who knows pain!

so keep up your good work and watch how the right hands reach down and pick me up and love the diamond they have found peace pastorsvoice 

mother's love

A  Mother's Love well all who have one should make sure you tell them how you love them

because take it from one who has no mother no father no grandpa no grandma no aunts no uncles don't know who your brother or sisters is because it was said we didn't have the same daddy when you been chasing family all your life this day I write to you from my heart ok

Now my mind was trigger when someone went on and on about how they miss their friends

and how they missed getting a drink meeting different men but not once did they say i miss

my kids???Where is that mother love that you feel inside to make you climb over hell and

high water to keep them safe! To all mothers remember these little ones came out you who 

you carried for nine months it grew in you how the hell can't you love your child how a man

or a bottle or good time break that bond? Can I appeal to you with this blog love your family

This is me all my life alone even when i was with someone never knowing who or what you

belong to never seeing father or his side and mother was the only child and she treated us 

like she was treated she was not there most of the time so root little pig or die you get hard

and survive! So what is important family or fun kids or cigs responsibility or street ability

Who are you and when are you going to start back loving your family???????

peace pastorsvoice!!!!!!!!! MY WORDS ENJOY

   

  

rude awakening

Howdy neighbor what up in your world this blog is going to make some mad but the truth is
the truth! Can you handle the truth? Well we see in a few because i'm about to break this off
We know who know and don't know I got a new job taking people to their appointments and the
company serve the upper state of  south Carolina that has foot hills and mountains so I drove
to a place call pelizer s.c  and  I was in my van feeling good about my self and just needed some
gas so I just whipped  the van in to this place that had a restaurant in it so me with my happy
self busted up in this place like hell it was mine and I got about in the middle of the restaurant
and oh my god first I notice this big ass rebel flag floating in the corner right then I should have
back my black azz out there and come back to 2016 but I was back in the freaking 50's in this place
as I stopped in my tracks my eyes started to go around the room no bull it happen just like this every
one in this place stopped and paused looking at me like I know he did not bring him black azz in
here and no bull I forgot what the hell I wanted out this place my mind went blank because every
one was looking at me some stopped in the middle of putting the spoon in their freaking mouth
I don't care how bad you are when you are by yourself in a place with nothing but a damn card in
your hand and you see about 35 people that is way lighter than you looking at you what do you do?

First I placed myself in the walk the hell out position and I ease my black azz to the door all this time not one word was said they just looked at me hell my mouth was closed so tight my teeth  looked

like one big as flag its self no bull all my balls left me my first mind said now you never ran hell I told my mind to shut the hell up don't boost me head up because this is not the time or place so I 

backed my azz up! Backed right out the door dash to my van and got the hell out of there see we 

take for granted our rights listen in that case I had the right to remain silent! And that what did

hey never would i go missing and some one else be still eating like nothing happen not me 

peace pastorsvoice