bright lights in the city!

Bright lights big dreams in a city all dream of a chance to make this their paradise but many dream get shatter in the push and pull of live in the big city!Little boys dream little girls never seen the pretty lights that make or break many souls! Down these street life look good but its a struggle just to see who can win lots of dirty deals just to get a meal! Who got a smile just to see what you got on the inside dog eat dog these streets will chew you up and spit you out and no one will give a hoot about you! Many people who was good and went there got suck in to the race to be on top! Lost and alone this is not your home hard and mean hey they make alot of green! Friends will come and friends will go see a face today and never see them no more!Life in the big city! Some love it some get run over by it to make it is to take it no matter what it take bright lights is your life! Hustle to be the best and no one matter why she was just another stepping stone to make him grown! Little girls beware it's a jungle out there! Pretty pretty faces pretty places to get you have to give and how much is your soul worth in gold! A Lot to see and a lot to be but you are never free in the bright lights of the city!

     OH boy how much is ahead of you to get into  don't under estimate the pace or the place this is for the strong and many wrongs is the way of life! Get a good job think you have made it but just look at your photograph when you left home and now see how the street wore on you made you look so old! Fast life fast times see fast to live and fast to die! But baby i'm on it can't worry what mamma said why I on my own!Little girl please go home! But you got to prove that you are grown! Look so good but for real you ain't  

ready! When you hit the block who got all the stock the make this world rock go home!

peace pastorsvoice!

deep in my world!

My mind is that a racing to see what it can accomplish thoughts going back-and-forth but still lost in my mind seeing how it take so much to just be so much my brain is in a game that is not the same run into all the mazes this in my mind my visions get lost all the time and when feelings and emotions enter in hurt and depression starts to begin open the past to the darkest side all my dreams begin to collide with all the thing that makes my mind come alive over and over again. This pattern of thinking start to begin deep in the world of thoughts taking me places and  images of  light going in races! Negative thoughts is in my mind pushing back the positive that makes me blind thinking that the world is a beautiful place but when people make is so ugly and a disgrace push forth an push back visions of a calm world trying to relax steady being aggravated by the things in this world when time sit in my mind the sounds of screams of pain and agony is flowing to make me open my eyes to a world that tears itself from inside! People can't you see that war and fighting is not in me !To hate is easy but to love is so hard why people is so torn apart! Just take one moment and see!

Visions of peace just go through my mind is all I see is war all the time this one against that and that one against this when is we going to realize that this earth is all our home no one will survive everyone shoot bombs from their side so what is the big fuss and fight to try to prove that each one is right when all is settle and done when is all over nobody won!You hate me for what reason don't know me never seen me but you hate me why is that going to be just try to get to know me and you will see that me and you have so much in common! Death is for all and life is just for the only one who stands tall so reading this blog you see my dilemma get through this maze in my mind you need to remember that life is short and you must live it to the fullest Life take time to enjoy the beauty of it!peace pastorsvoice!

TO: all the hard azz talkers on line!

Yes on the internet you can act so  bad azz why no one see you and you talk a good game but in real life you get your azz kick! Man people on line get so bold why they know you are a million miles away! So they spit stuff our their minds that they would never say to your face why they would get that azz knocked out! See I just been threw this where this person talked so much smack on how love and relationship is and told on it's self this azz wipe posted I never cheated and never been cheated on in my life! See this one they get this badge for how you don't have a life all you got is a damn laptop and time! So here's your badge!

See it's get me when they get on line and just because they heard some bullshit from some perverted professor at the school that only them will attend get a degree in how to mess with someone mind who's mind in messed up in the first place then bring that bull to on line and tell you that you don't know how to communicate and there's more to it than that! Well to your first point communicate this kiss my black azz! Is that clear communication for you! And to your next point if there was more to it how the hell you can understand more when you did not get the first part right! So to all that think they win a fight on the internet this is you!

 Man get a life and I'll show you how to win your internet fight DELETE YOUR AZZ OFF MY PAGE! peace pastorsvoice!

unplugging your mind!

UNPLUG YOUR MIND IN THIS LIFE LISTEN TO THIS SPIT FOR A FEW LET'S RIDE

PEOPLE IS ON A QUEST FOR SOME ONE TO BE SOMEBODY BUT THAT'S NOT WHAT'S HAPPENING STANDING HERE LOOKING IN THE MIRROR SAYING DAMN TO MY SELF HOW MUCH THIS WORLD DICTATE MY LIFE WHEN I KNOW THIS PEOPLE WILL PROVE THAT THEY IS ONLY AROUND YOU ONLY FOR WHAT YOU GOT OR WHAT YOU CAN GIVE NEVER JUST FOR YOU IF YOU HAVE SOMETHING THEY HANG AROUND LONG ENOUGH UNTIL IT'S GONE THEN THEY GO TO THE NEXT ONE! NOW THE UP IS DOWN AND IT FEELS LIKE YOU WALK THIS ROAD FOR SO LONG THAT YOUR FEET HURT AND YOU FEEL SO ALONE THERE'S A FINE LINE BETWEEN LOVE AND HATE THE GAME HAS CHANGE! CHANGE YEAH I GUESS EVERYONE NEED SOME IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER! WE IS ALIVE BUT NOT LIVING IT CAN ALL BE SO SIMPLY BUT YOU RATHER MAKE IT HARD CAN I JUST UNPLUG FOR A FEW AND BE SUSPENDED FOR A FEW!TO LOVE PEOPLE IS A BATTLE AND WE BOTH END UP WITH SCARS! TELL ME IS LIFE A SILLY GAME WHEN I'M NOT PLAYING SEE I FIND A ROAD TO NOWHERE AND I'M TRYING TO ESCAPE HELP ME UNPLUG FOR A FEW!

FLOWING OVER A RIVER OF PAIN AND NO ONE IS ON TRIAL SO WALK ON IN THE MIST OF LIFE AND SHOW WHAT A FORCE IS. YOU CAN TELL IT'S WRITTEN ON MY FACE THAT I DON'T CARE ANYMORE! HEY I GOT NOTHING TO LOSE IF I SPEAK MY MIND UNPLUG ONE MORE TIME

LAST LINES AND FEEL ME ON THIS LET ME SEE IF TRUTH IS STRONG AND I'M ON IT!THIS IS MY STORY HOPELESS AND I NEED TO SHAKE THAT LOAD OFF! PEOPLE SAY THAT THEY ARE HAPPY FOR YOU BUT THEY REALLY NOT! ALL THEY WANT IS WHAT YOU GOT! SO UNPLUG AND SEE WHAT THIS LIFE REALLY BE PASTOR'SVOICE SAY'S PEACE BE WITH YA! BOOM I'M GONE!   

99 problems but love is not one!

Love is all over the internet and most who say it don't have a damn clue what it mean! Now we know hurt pain and whine about what had happen to us and how we want love to be. We put these quotes on line that some one who don't give a rats azz about you and love just need more hits on their post! Then you got these people that post how bad they got hurt and then other join in and say you are right! But if the one giving you advice can keep no one their self how the hell is that helping you? No its just helping your pity party! They all ways post about how bad they was treated but never tell about the slick shit that they did they always talk about how they did them so wrong well isn't it wrong to try to change someone into your dream man or woman? We have used the word love so much that we don't have a clue to what we want! All we have is dreams of how it suppose to be. Well life is a bitch some times and wake up out of the world of every thing must go my way! Listen love is like a fly it's only good when it's doing what it's born for! A fly is born to eat screw and die! Love is born to make you feel wanted, needed,and at one! How can you ever get this went you can't stand your own ways! When you accept it you won't have to find love love will find you!

See every time you talk about how bad you got it more bad comes to you! Every one of us have something that we never want to come out! That's why we see all of someone else bad faults why a dog know a dog and a cheater all ways get cheated by one! And this is for all who say I never did nothing to hurt them. Bet You Did! Watch this! Each time you try to get them to do something you knew that they did not want to do but they did it just to please you that a true way of showing that you don't love them all you love is what you want! Now you say that's not true then why is it when they say no you get mad! See we is so good about telling some one else our problem so we can get a short cut in how to solve it not just working it out and learning from it! Why would you ask your girlfriend how to keep your man when she don't have a steady man her self! We talk about love but this is what love is all about taking the good and bad the trust and the times you don't trust! To go against what you feel is hard but that's what love is! Doing what you never done! Stay with the one who hurt you and just give them a chance to make it right ! But I know you once you hurt they don't get a second chance to do it again! Right! But you will think wrong of someone who did you like that when you just messed up and made a bad choice! Oh love is giving and taking and both is not always pretty!

Find it first then say you love me! peace pastorsvoice!

 

Vampire are real!

VAMPIRES ARE REAL BUT NOT THESE TWO THEY IS A JOKE COMPARE TO THE REAL ONES! SEE THESE ARE JUST MADE UP PEOPLE WHO GOT PAID TO LOOK LIKE THAT. BUT THE REAL ONES YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW OK THIS IS TRUTH! ONE DAY WHEN I VISITED A PLACE THAT HAD A LOT OF NORMAL PEOPLE IN THERE SO ON MY WAY I HEAD A SCREAM! AND SOME ONE SAID THAT HURT THEN THIS OTHER VOICE SO SOFT AND SCAREY SAY STOP IT WILL ONLY TAKE A MINUTE! AND THESE MODERN DAY VAMPIRES HAVE TOOK ON A NEW AND NOT SO SCARY LOOK THAT'S HOW THEY GET YOU IN THE OLD DAYS THEY LOOK LIKE THIS ONE IN THE PICTURE

AND HECK YOU SPOT THEM ANYWHERE BUT THESE NEW ONES BLEND IN SO WELL THAT YOU WOULD NEVER KNOW THEM OK BACK TO THE SCREAM WHEN I OPEN THE DOOR MAN THEY HAD TEETH THAT WAS MAN OF IRON AND PLASTIC YES THE IRON ONES HURT REAL BAD BUT THE PLASTIC ONES GO IN SO EASY BUT WILL SWELL YOU UP SO BAD THAT YOU LOOK LIKE THE STAY-PUFF MARSHMALLOW MAN! SO ME WITH MY BAD SELF ASK WHAT ARE YOU DOING AND THE SOFT VOICE SAID SIT RIGHT HERE YOU'RE NEXT! MAN MY HEART SKIP A BEAT AND COLD CHILLS WENT UP AND DOWN MY SPINE JUST TO THINK I WALKED IN ON A BLOOD TAKEN BEAST THAT LOOK SO DAMN FINE! HECK I WOULD HAVE ASK IT OUT ON A DATE BUT IT WAS TAKEN SO MUCH BLOOD DATE WENT OUT THE WINDOW! AFTER I KNEW THERE WAS NOTHING I COULD DO FOR THAT POOR PERSON I WATCHED IT WALK OUT IN PAIN AND I KNEW I WAS TOAST! MAN LET ME SHOW YOU HOW THEY LOOK!

THAT RIGHT I WAS IN A DOCTORS OFFICE AND EACH TIME YOU GO THEM VAMPIRES THEY TAKE BLOOD AND THEIR TEETH IS LIKE NEEDLES HECK THEY ARE THE NEEDLES THAT THEY STICK YOU WITH EACH TIME YOU GO IN THE LAB AND SOME CAN BITE WITHOUT HURTING BUT SOME JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO BITE THEY STICK YOU OVER AND OVER LIKE THAT SHIT DON'T HURT! NEXT TIME YOU VISIT THE DOCTOR'S OFFICE FIRST THING THEY ASK HAVE YOU EATEN YET! WHY SOME HOW IF YOU EAT THEY CAN'T GET THE BLOOD TO DO RIGHT HECK I DON'T KNOW I'M NOT A DOCTOR! BUT THEY ARE REAL BLOOD TAKERS! PEACE PASTORSVOICE!
P.S SEE YOU AT THE LAB!   

SUPPRESSION OF YOUR RIGHTS!

In today's world the bills of rights is just a piece of paper why no ones has it! Freedom of speech is not here yes you can't say what you want in the place where no ones at but not every where in the USA! OK WATCH THIS! If you don't like how the powers to be is don't thing you better not say any thing jail will be your home or dead in the river!People think when they vote they have a voice your voice is only when you agree with the power to be! To be killed for what you said tell me what good it did you are dead and your voice is no more! Just a recording of what was said not what need to be said now! You only have the right to follow not to lead heck the president do not have power to lead he is all ways told by house and senate what they like and don't like! And they will strike down anything that don't go their way!We sit here a say the land of the free right?OK I'm free to say this freedom comes with a price and many men and women died for that each day so me and you can sit on our butts and say what we don't have! Why  everybody can't be on top somebody tells and another follow. The one who tells is in control the one who follow do just that follow! Now it piss me off how much we as people disagree about stuff that don't mean shit! And all it takes is for one to just say ok you are right! But no because we fell we have the right to say any thing most hurt us and never help us! Just stop for a minute and think just how free you really is!

This is us as people so afraid to be really free we rather for some one to hold us back then to free us why so many don't know what to do with freedom if it kicked them in their azz! Ok I know this is close to home but watch this why can't we just accept each other for what we believe and live no soon as the power to be see that you is not them then they try to change you or make you change by killing all that believe the way you do and if there is nobody to teach you in life  then you take on their life that is teach to you! Peep this! If I stop you from thinking and think for you then you will be just like I want you to be right? Well most teach you what they want you to be not who or what they are! Because they don't even like who they are! Freedom is not free it's earned! Respect come from understand one life not trying to change it but deal with it! WHY OH WHY EVERY TIME WE GO IN A COUNTRY WE TRY TO PUT OUR WAY AND VALUES ON THEM AND TRY TO FIX WHAT WORKED FOR THEM ALL THEIR LIFE! My last words love me for me my good and bad my high and my lows why that's me and you can't change who I am! Because if you do then I'm not the man who I was born to be! peace pastorsvoice!

                                            BE YOU AND ONLY YOU! NOT A ROBOT!   

REAL LIFE GANGSTER

                                  TRUE GANGSTERS NOT FAKE AZZ RAP ARTIST!

This is a TRUE prediction of what life is in the city. We live like this each day never knowing what the outcome made me to live and to die was a daily routine now this is just a look inside of my life when I was young we did drugs and hang out in the streets  all night. At that time I didn't care cocaine that I was on told me to get you before you get me and in that life there was no tomorrow we had each other back and no one went down alone.Life wasn't as bad as they say it is because there was love among us. Yes we robbed a lot stole a lot but at the end of the day when I ate you ate many look for all the good story but this is a true story on how you live your life in the city never knew my father and my mother was hardly home all I had was my brothers in the gang we had nothing but each other in my back and I had their back but that when I was young now that I'm older and wiser I see all that I needed somebody to love me love is a powerful weapon and if you don't have it life can be really hard so take this advice family is everything that you got stick close learn from the older ones that is trying to keep you out of trouble because trouble is easy to get into but hard to get out of yes I spent time behind bars but I learned my lesson having a wife and kids made me realize that all that I will doing just hurt someone else family

Now many may look at these pictures and say that these are bad people but once you get to know them you will understand your lifestyle don't judge a book by its cover because only inside the book you just might find that you have something in common with them so as you read this blog just remember this they are people too just trying to get by this life that this city have to offer!
peace pastorsvoice! And these is not your fake azz rap artists that rap about a fake azz life that they never had!

Are you afraid of the dark?

Are you scared of the dark? Now this right here that you see in this picture makes people like me don't like dark rooms. Okay this blog is not for you who is not afraid of the dark! This blog is for the chicken hearted like me! See how not afraid of the dark I'm just afraid of what I feel in the dark the hair on the back of my neck stands up and thoughts raced through my on what's is in this room. All that feels just like me you know that a dark room is our enemy no lights no go!

See seems like this should not be scary but to the ones that is afraid of the dark see pictures like this makes a person think why is I'm out here too many things happens in pictures like this we seen too many movies where people get killed in things like this okay just my phobia but crazy stuff happens to those who think they are so bad azz! Okay you say It's all in my mind but you can't tell me what I feel tell my eyes to tell my mind that they are playing tricks on Convince my heart that there is nothing wrong and tell my knees to stop knocking! Give me light or liberty to run is to live to stay is to die now you choose which ones is you? Every scary movie has a smart person that knows when to run but all the brave ones Jason always kills.

OK you go first and I'll see you on the out side because my scary azz would have never went in the first place! Be brave and get your azz killer don't worry! OH you can't why your azz is dead! NOPE NOPE NOPE not me give me some light so I can see what the hell is out there! peace pastor'svoice!

rape is not a laughing matter!

Rape is a sick and twisted action that weak people perform that's hurts many people Most who do it feel like that It's nothing to them they just talk about it and brag about it like the person that they did that to was nothing we here in this world have no love at all! All we have in this world is how to hurt, kill and take things from one another the sad thing about this is if you kill someone their pain is over but when you rape someone their pain is for a lifetime.

People figure that they can do what they want when they want and how they want but to me this is very wrong! How can we live with our selfs when we know what's right and what's wrong see I am speaking from the heart because I know how it feel to be on both sides I know how I feel to be rape and I know how It feel to rape someone!

Now let me clear up that raping someone thing! We all was young and dumb I was about 13 and me and some of the friends of mine attack and rape a friend girl of the block at all it was over I felt bad until the next day when she came back for us to do it again No that don't justify the first time all it is saying that I can talk about this now this is going to be close to home and I am ashame to say but  my own brother did the same to me so I know how it feels! This blog goes out to all the victims that got to live their life in pain and dysfunction that most of us never get over. This is very hard for me here I'm 50 years old and can still remember the horror and pain that my life threw! Last but not least look at the following picture and tell me how you feel! Peace pastorsvoice>

SAD SAD TO SEE! NOW HOW YOU FEEL?

Family is there anymore?

 Today many people try to see how their family is so dysfunctional in This world people drive to get along but they don't. This is a look into my family. There was never no love we all was put against one another to see who was the best and at any given day someone was going to be tried just to see who can get on each other nerves now being that I was the baby I had to fight all three people I don't understand when family can't function as a family unit? It was a very chaotic environment we had a shoot out in the house crazy molester stayed in house a lot of drunks stayed around the house and life was a hell when I was growing up. At the age of six my brother and his girlfriend made me and her little sister have sex just like they were doing at the age of nine was made to smoke weed and it was so funny to them when I had got high and began to do stupid things many days we wasn't allowed to go outside many days we had a fight off all the perverts and many days mama was not home. Growing up was really bad in the city because there was never no love you had to get tough or get run over sex and drugs and alcohol were the best bang! We  had to fight and shoot with guns against each other when it was a everyday thing in my house. But I write this blog not feel sympathy just to let you know how dysfunctional some families are if you love your children then train them up in the right way that they won't charge their children for the things that you did. We blame so much on our life but when all we had and learn from was our family members. So next time you look at that Child and say you remind me of your no good daddy. Just think of all the damage you are doing to that child. All days wasn't bad when you got on the right side of the family many days we walked through the house and didn't say one word to each other and it looks could kill we all will be dead! Now you look at Al Bundy family and you laugh but this is just a show to make you laugh but in real life there is nothing funny about a dysfunctional! peace pastorsvoice!

Don't fall in this like we did but just remember that your kids need a good role model!

can I borrow but don't give back!

Today people will borrow anything milk, bread, salt,your wife your car and never give stuff back now if you ask me for money I don't look for it back now that's just me I know some will say you fool.Well if you think that crazy listen at these two times some one ask to borrow some thing! First one we was at home on a day that I was chilling out side and my neighbor came and sat down and started to talk to me he was telling me how bad he was having it this happens a lot in the hood and at first I felt bad for him until he went there! Where? This dude had the nerve to asks me to borrow a jug of water! WTF? A jug of water then he pulled out his cell phone and a pack of cigarettes and a big bag of weed! And he rolled a blunt me and my son looked at each other in amazement we ask just to be sure we heard right. Did you say you want to borrow a jug of water? He said yes my water has been turn off and I don't know when I can get it back on. Then someone from the block was going to the store and he called them over and ask if they will bring him a beer. And this azz wipe pull out a knot of money and sent the person to the store. So you should know me by what you have already read in my blogs. My mouth got bold I said how can you sit here  talk on the phone smoke your cigs and weed send to the store for beer and can't pay you water bill he said this is my re-up money and I need to re-up my weed so I said no you need to drink and wash hell no you can't get a drop of piss from me! He got mad and say stop tripping! Yes I was tripping my azz in the house to make sure no one give the leach a glass of water!

Second one we was in burger king and there was a man that all day every day come threw and ask every one to borrow a dollar he looked dirty and and smell real bad you will think he had nothing so my friend
was just picking he told the man I don't have a dollar but if you got change for a ten then I will give you a dollar. Well this old stank azz dude surprise us all he did the dumbest thing I ever seen this man went in his
pocket and pull out a roll of money and count out nine one dollars and look at my boy and said here is nine give me the ten! Now this man made a fool out of us some many days by giving him a dollar when his azz had money! See this is how people is they keep theirs and spend yours!

    Why the hell you would go and know you don't have money to spend? but the last will tell it all peace pastor'svoice!

don't get it twisted!

More and more time we under estimate the one we think is not on our level.Well this spit is for you! So what I don't react the way you think. That don't make me weak or that I don't know what's up most of the time I just don't want to drop to your level or full fill some sick or twisted mind set that strokes your stupidity level!  I'm right or by in to your reverse thinking that you think will trap me! Ok play that game but this one you will lose this game. Why some times you go to far and get so careless that you forget that I made the book on to mess up that's why I'm with you! People take kindness for weakness but when I'm at my lowest then I'm at my best how? Because I'm not on your level I think at a higher pace then you because you is still on that same bull that got you trapped in your lie the first place so you lie to cover your lie that did not fit the first place! You think that you can out smart everyone but you met you match here! And by the time you realize it Boom your azz is in a sling! And I broke the walls down on your stupid shit! And let your sorry azz know just how sorry you really are!

Money don't make the man! The man make the money!
An you can have so much money and still be dumb as hell!
But most women go for the money not for some one who is willing to give them all that they have even if they just don't have a lot of money to give! Now money makes the world go around right? Well if there's no love and no trust how much money can buy that? My point is don't get it twisted happiness comes when you be true not a fake azz person who just got money! Then you get more fake azz friends and fake azz women who just see a meal ticket! Last but not lease my mind is too deep for people who think that I'm their all day sucker! peace pastorsvoice!

stop trying!

As you look at this face you think then there are many ways to make you fine!  Some are very bad for your little opinion they say beauty is skin deep! Wow How we were very wrong when we feel that a little
cut here and a little cut their will do the trick! But these faces need to be cut everywhere! How can you Go from being so  fine to that damn nightmare who want a permanent smile? Who want their face to be stretched up and down and still come out looking a clown. Today we try so hard to look beautiful when nothing was wrong with us in the first place. Why is we sold hard trying to look young act your age and not your shoe size! Over through the years many people tried to capture the fountain of youth but sad to say that he had a bad day now we look at these faces how the doctor may disgrace a face that you could never replace the pretty lines that was on your face my old my why old why can't you see how silly you will be if you follow these faces just buy some soap and clean your face stopped changing that what you was born with trying to be something you will never be somethings about us is unique and if we all looked same then there would be no need for individuality! So if you feel the need to cut take this advice for me cut all the bull from out your ears that you are not a beautiful person just the way you are and if you feel like you need to Change then look at the top of page and think again now. How you feel that  I lost my face you sucker! Show nuff! I see you peace pastor'svoice! P.S but don't be caught looking like this on prom nite! Or any nite you dumb azz trick!