deep in my soul

Who will wipe my tears? What will break my fears? In a day it will be a new year! Every one make these clams on how to be better.How to do better but in realty the one thing change is the year the same demon come right back if you don't get together and try to just love! They always say you hurt 

because you been hurt but that is not true most hurt because it makes them feel powerful or in control

or to promote fear in some one who cares about someone who is just using them! The ones who do the hurting will boast about how they can't be weak just to care! Most men won't show that they care because to them it make you weak or gay! Well i'm straight but one thing I can say the gay mens show there mates how much they care and the only thing most men can say is they got sugar in their tank but at the end of the day love always find them why they do care! Don't toot your horn women because you have become as cold as most men you are beginning to do the same thing you fight so 

hard to stop from happening to you but you do the same! Wow how fickle is womens and then you have the balls to say there is no good men anymore! Why should a man be good when the woman is up to no good?HAPPY NEW YEARS RIGHT? When it gets happy i'll let you know Ok you tell me I'm happy do you care about the ones you hurt just to think how happy you are? look below and think

Now who will change this year? Who will make a difference?Who would just for once stop just thinking of themselves! And just show anyone some real love not that lip love but from the soul!

This year is in your hand make a difference in someones life just leave a mark of love not hate my 

rant is over I bid you peace pastorvoice!   

welcome to reality!

Welcome to the real zone where no bull is allowed today is the day to see things as they really is.

No dreams no looking over the facts no wishes no hopes and no stupidity! Just the facts ok! How

many of us wait by the phone waiting on some one to call you or text you when somewhere deep in the back of your mind you just know that they is not going to call but you fool yourself that they will!

How many time you know that if you keep on doing the I'm so slick game that I'm playing two people and no one knows you feels like i'm so smart that they will never catch me. How about this

you are giving some money for a bill but you see something you want you tell yourself  that i can replace it and in the back of your head you know you can not replace water to a filled bottle but you 

spend it anyway!WELCOME TO THE REALITY ZONE WHERE YOU CAN READ YOURSELF!

All the broken promises and no effort not even trying but always lying even fooling yourself that you 

did is about to blow up on you today! Why look in the mirror when you will not believe what you see? What good is it to ask for advice when you already know you don't listen to jack? How can you 

say that you are true when you can't even be true to your own self wow how mess up the humans  really is! We have fake the funk for so long that even we ourself believe a lie and then get mad when

you are lied to! THESE four letters we don't have no more value in anymore and what is these words?

  

How come these four letters cause so much effect on your life just look and realize that when

you say these words how much of it is really true! 

holidays blues!

Hey to all my readers tis the season to be jolly! Are you serious? Listen tis the season to get stuff straight! Some may have a lot of reason to be jolly but some of us got some serious stuff to get straight! Did any one of you had a mate that didn't deserve a kick in the butt but they got their
hand out like I been there for you all year? Or you know that you is not getting jack crap from
these people but they ask what are you getting me for christmas?You need to say don't let me tell
you but show you and then haul off and chop there fake butt in the throat! Most people think this is
the time to used the heck out of you to get a present.Don't get me wrong this was the happy time of
the year for me until two years ago! This is the way I feel like some one who looks like this

Giving to people who don't give a crap about you leave you drunk and alone! What pressure it puts on you when you got more month than money! And all you see is what you want to give but can't afford it.Because you spent all your money on someone else! Wow how do the mighty fall ho ho hold  up!When its gets so bad that you have to get a loan to pay christmas you need to think how jolly is january when this bill is due! So merry christmas to all and to all GET RIGHT! OH P.S THIS IS MY FACE FOR CHRISTMAS!

   

   

a day in the mountain!

A day in the mountains do you see how beautiful the sun set or sun rise is which ever floats you boat!

But getting back to my point this describes the day I had man me and my baby took a road trip! For those who is still in the 70's road trip means no drugs no imaginary people no bad trips no mushrooms LSD or good weed did say i didn't smoked none but not that type of trip! Anyway we meet a beautiful person and their baby and spent a very nice time but this got me my baby showed her butt watch this she raged on me all day long she showed her butt i wanted to just punch her in 

her throat all who had a day like that you know what I mean But this person took my mind off knocking my baby out! LOL But listen she was so amazing and interesting I just felt so at home

First date ok was so scary why because you are wondering if they like you or if you look good enough or do they like you or not it was so crazy because the first date never goes like that picture trying to showing it is not that easy you want to grab them and just hold them but you know that they 

just might punch you in the face right yo! But you leave wondering if they had a good enough time 

to see you again? How many been there if you did give your self two snaps and a twirl! Now you are left like this picture says look below!

Because until they call you back a lot goes threw your mind but you know me I have to leave you this if you are in doubt call them out and see what that day was all about little rhyme there peace pastorvoice! 

do you miss this?

So many take love for granted they are so quick to get the cookies but never drank the milk.

You never know how much you miss true love until it's gone!Most will say I happy being single

but on that star lit night when no one is there to hold you or watch how most will say ok to this a cold rainy night when the house is toasty a good love movie is on the tube and you see them holding each

other but you is all alone that's when it hits you how nice it be when all is right in relationship! Not 

that joker you meet at the bar who just want to see what kind of panties you are wearing but the one that makes you really go off in a trance just thinking about the way they smell the way they touch you the way they smile the way they look how they hold you how all their attention is on you and you only do you feel me on this one? Alot of us have sex so long that they can't remember what love really is anymore!Are there any real lovers anymore?Or just a lot of people who just want sex!

How many can relate to this just spending quality time to just enjoy each other to be happy

When was the last time someone just looked into your eyes hold you close and said I LOVE YOU?

Or when was the last time you two just took a long walk and enjoyed each other ok you think your

life alone is so great but I can tell you this if love was in this world we would not have so much 

hate and distrust what happen to us as people who care about each other we have become a loveless

nation of strangers!  

Try this peace pastorsvoice

Represent me!

Really ask your self ladies what do you want in a man? This is the question of this blog! Years ago most women had a man who had two families lived two life's never was trusted because it was said that is a man! And a lot of women hated that statement right? because it gave the man the right to cheat! Now days the same thing you women hate is the same you do! Men are dogs you say but you dog men too! They cheat you cheat they lie you lie so how is it that you don't like this about a man but you do the same now do you hate what you have become? Ok just look at me at tell me what you see?

Most just see a black man who might rob me most see a man who has no future most see someone i can't trust most see a un-dependable man again most will say he look alright or that is one ugly dude but no one see the love and trust that this person has to offer lets face it men do not have a good track record and a BLACK MAN has a bad rap that he don't take care of his family! Ok that might have been true for some but more black men has broke that mold we watch our black woman act like what they say they hate and we have stepped up because so many of us grow up with out a father in our life! So a good black man not the crazy azz fool who most black women go after! They get a bad boy or a thug and wonder why he treat me so bad? REALLY REALLY he don't care for himself how do you think he care for you! Time for the real black man to stand up and break that bad rap that most men is showing and if you women stop and think how bad the man is treating you look at your daughters and think how bad they will be treated if you keep a bad boy in your life that don't give a rats azz about no one!

No bad boy not a gang banger nor a sugar daddy listen yes the candy store is open but we is all out of suckers! No more will a good man be treated like crap! MY WORDS PEACE PASTORSVOICE! 

on and poppin!

Flowing is a term I use to say when I'm focus on my grind! See it's time because I started again from the bottom but never scared to move forward you can't let people change your flow if you do then you are a fake person because you are what someone else see you as listen to this flow right here!
I'm searching for a new love been alone to long but as time past won't just let some one  pull me down to where they are if you don't want anything so what I do! How is your life is it just a blunt and brew? Ladies if he don't show you 100% attention drop his azz why because he is not your KING!
A court jester is easy to have why fun and games is good in school but this is life baby let get it! Read this one on how you should get this life because life is too short to do bad you don't need help to do bad!

 Ok now you under stand if they are not here for life subtract them from your Rolodex ha ha I know they hate this but why should time be wasted on a part time love? They don't know why that's just what I do I'm just honest! check this one out and tell me how to roll?

 Haters beware this is my time to shine and you can't stop this flow go ahead run in this brick wall and commit suicide! Just trading my life for you! one more and this is the clicker for today!  peace pastorsvoice!

you know better

You know better!

You know it's not your day when you look up in the sky and it tells you that you are fucked! Most
get a sign that tells us but all the time you know better! But when life deals you lemons most say
make lemon-aid but I say start your own business with them lemons! Because life is not fair we
all ways have to go with the flow that we have. Answer this why strangers treat you and accepted
your accomplishments better then the ones who know you? We take a stand and the ones that is
suppose to be with you always is the one who cut tour feet out and crap in your face Why?
Is it when you got money the world is your friend but when you are down they step on you and
they feel like they did something!But this picture right here will say a thousand words
See many people need this why what you do
to others will come back on you but when all is said and done they all way want some one to help
them when you never did nothing but put people down talked about them and treated them like they
was a piece of crap on your shoe! But most will say i'm no doctor but  I can say this one day you
is up and one day down so while you are up help some one so when you are down some one will
help you in my close I leave you this!

peace pastorsvoice

MONEY TALKS BULLSHIT WALKS!

THIS BLOG IS IN CAPS WHY? BECAUSE PEOPLE BULLSHIT ALL THE TIME AND 

WONDER WHY YOU CUT THEIR AZZ OFF! LISTEN WE LIVE THIS LIFE AND IT IS

HARD ENOUGH TO DEAL WITH IT AND THEN ON TOP OF LIFE HERE THEY COME

WITH SOME STUPID AZZ BULLSHIT THIS IS MY THOUGHTS SAVE THAT DRAMA

FOR YOUR MAMA! SHE IS THE ONE THAT YOUR BULLSHIT IS CUTE TO! NO ONE

ELSE WILL DEAL WITH A HALF AZZ PERSON! WHOA! NOW IT'S HARSH RIGHT?

WELL DON'T WRITE A CHECK THAT YOUR AZZ CAN'T CASH ! SEE YOU MIGHT

DISAGREE BUT MONEY TALKS SEE MEN BUY'S A NEAT CAR BECAUSE HE KNOW'S

THAT SOME CHICKEN HEAD WILL LIKE IT AND GIVE HIM A RIDE FOR A RIDE! SEE

THE TRUTH HURTS WHEN IT IS ABOUT YOUR WRONG AND MOST CAN'T DEAL 

WITH IT JUST TAKE A LOOK BELOW AND TELL ME WHAT IS WHAT?

WHY WHEN YOU GET CAUGHT YOU ARE SO SORRY THEN? YOU WAS NOT WHEN YOU

DID WHAT YOU DID OK YOU SAY YOU MESSED UP YOU RIGHT YOU NEVER MISS YOUR WELL UNTIL IT RUN'S DRY OR YOU CAN'T DIP YOUR BULLSHIT IN AND GET

ALL LOYALTY BACK ANY MORE PIECE OF ADVICE DON'T BURN YOUR BRIDGE AFTER

YOU CROSS BECAUSE YOU JUST MIGHT NEED IT TO GET BACK ACROSS! LAST WORDS FOR THIS BLOG BUT FIRST TAKE ONE MORE LOOK

ARE YOU REAL OR NOT MANY WILL READ THIS AND LIE EVEN TO THEMSELVES

AND I IS BAD WHEN YOU BELIEVE YOUR OWN BULLSHIT! PEACE PASTORS VOICE!   

trading my life

Ok most will say i'm not trading my life for any thing but if you really look at it we do every day!
How hard is it to just care about the way someone else feeling and not just our own? Wow hard
right? Listen we have been played so much that we feel like no one can be trusted and we will say
i'm just going to play because no one going to play me! These is the kind of people that would turn
a good person bad! This is why so much hurt is between couples and relationships never last!
Every one thinks they are being played! And no one believes the truth any more they would believe
a lie first before they believe the truth! Sure you have people who wouldn't know the truth if it bit them! but this is one thing I know most men would give up there life for this! look below

or for this and don't you men lie! Just think how much this would change things in your life?

but they just don't realize a lot of trust come with a woman like this and most don't have that trust

so all they do is treat them like meat on a buffet line get all you want but you can't take it home

with you! See we feel like if it look good it is but most will find out that all that looks good is 

the worst pain you can ever have! but one thing all give up there life for and its here look at this

ready to have one of my own how about you? peace pastorsvoice! yeah its on and poppin!
 

are we so different

are we so much into our self that we can't see that if I cut you  you bleed some stuff that is red or if I punch you in the face it hurts or you get a drug behind a truck we come apart? You may look different in the face you might be a fat azz person or so skinny that if you fart you move three inches

forward at the end of the day we all is the same most will disagree  but watch this when every one go to the shower you don't take a dump! OPS my bad some did lol! But that is beside the point! In life we put the difference in between us but really there is none watch this

See we always have some people that we just don't give a rats azz about any more but this is one 

thing to remember sometimes the ones you diss is the ones you just might need !OK onward James! Always wanted to say that but  you don't realize  how we ourselves put the different in between people! Ok if my words did nothing for you then this will just read the last thing I place here and 

you be the judge?

so still are you so different? Get back at your boy! peace pastorsvoice

I woke up like this

 This is a bad way to wake up all my hormones is going crazy why I haven't had sex in a year and some months ok its easy for you women to say so what because you have a sex shut off thing that you are good at! You can go for years with out it! But us MEN have more to deal with see we have two heads that is telling us its time to do something. If you don't you will see the little head waking you up each morning! See us men is control by something you women don't understand WE NEED TO RELEASE THE PRESSURE most say use your hand but that don't do shit for me how can us men think we can fool our other head with our hand? Its not a breast or legs or the cookie it is a damn hand your own hand!

This is crazy to wake up like this all the time most say go fix the problem with someone I LOVE ME!

And too much is out there I don't want my other head to fall off! SMH someone will take this off me 

but they will have to know it is for life not just a night!See how crazy i am look at this

see to me this look like the cookies oh boy do I love some cookies! but it is not it is a damn lamp!
See how our mind is we look at this all the time 24/7 its on our mind  we can't function  right until we get the cookies! So how we deal most become a hoe! They bang anything that move call them a dog but was not what your friend said last night he was GO DADDY! OPS My bad you thought if you cut them off it will get what you want! It might work sometime but it runs men to be dogs! Listen take it from a good man give up the cookies! The more cookies he eat lol and get it will stop him from wanting other cookies!

This is the best way to know that he is not a cookie monster bang his brains out before he leaves catch his azz at lunch then before he eat bang his azz again pretty soon he will say boo what wrong? And you say these cookies you can only eat this one ha ha go get him girls! peace pastorsvoice

chasing a dream

    Chasing a dream 

         

This beautiful child did not ask to come to this world but by the action of two people she is here!
Now the chase begins all my life I tried to fit in never quite making it each day I wonder why me
and my brother and two sisters was never close I been a good boy trying to get their love but never
Feeling the same love back all  my life I did what I thought would please them if they stole something I stole they drank I tried to they smoked I smoked being the baby every one of my older
family I looked up to but one day I got molested by one of them and they went on like all was good
my world change I been chasing a real family ever since never felt like I belong so I did my best to
find this thing you call family but each time I feel that this is it some how it gets taken away by the
ones I felt love me how can they never show love that made you felt safe and warm? How that is?

Many days this is my face and even now as old as I am these demons haunt me all I ever got was
WORDS THAT SAID I LOVE YOU BUT THERE ACTION WAS YOU REALLY DON'T
                                                                           MATTER
Now that my life is half way over I find my self still not having a true love to call my own! Every-
one think that someone is playing them so they play never noticing that your love is real Who
cares about love I do! Love is why we is here! Some one love made us so why is it so hard to
show the same? This is a small look in to  my life of pain yeah yeah I know we all been there
right? No tell me who my family is and where I come from then you might be able to fill these
                                                                        SHOES!

peace pastorsvoice!

negative people smh!

This is the words you don't want to hear! What is it? NEGATIVE !DON'T FORGET TO PUT PEOPLE WITH IT! Most people think that they have all the answers to any problem! But with their talk they do more damage they good why they are so negative all the time never  saying any thing to

make you feel like you got any thing! ALL WAYS what you is doing is never good enough if you know some one like this give a plus!Back to these people all the time never with you or want you 

do better then they want you to be. IT GET CRAZY! How can you always be a azzhole?

Tell me this if your car is blue why would they say you should have got a red one? They is not doing

a damn thing for you but bringing you down!Don't yell just sever them a dose of get you azz right!

Why if you got hard times they are happy why you is their new paper they always like to try to read you but don't know what paper you are! They say i'm your friend yeah right with them you don't 

need a enemy! As long as they can throw dirt at your name it good but that don't do nothing to help!

All you are is smoke in their hands but when you cut them off they will move to the next and bring
them down you feel i'm wrong then why you say in your mind haters make you famous? You know
this that bad news travel faster then your good why? Forget a fake as friend he just that fake! But
when you get these people who only know negative oh well be ready it's real yes they did! To all the ladies who read this if you are already struggling this sign you want to see tell me if i'm wrong?

HA HA HA YOU GOT AWAY WITH THEM MINUTES YOU HAD FUN! peace pastorsvoice!

forbidden love?

                                                               Forbidden love ha that a joke!

Ok lets dig right into this here WTF? WHO EVENS CARES THESE DAYS ANYTHING GOES 

THESE DAYS! We live where it don't matter if you got a damn cyclops on your arm somebody 

wants it! They don't have time for love! Why when SEX YES SEX makes this world go around a

quick screw or a rabbit time is all most want you may say HIT IT AND QUIT IT BUT THERE'S NO LOYALTY! OR FAITHFULNESS TRUE TO YOU OTHER PARTNER KNOW WHAT THAT IS 

When the booty is hot no one will say wait! Ok ladies or queens if a hot as man is spitting at you and

say no strings attach many will say these days another one in my cap! But most say no one will know
YEAH RIGHT! Who are you kidding? BOOTY NEWS TRAVEL REAL FAST! Most think I got
away with it! BUT WRONG YOU GOT BY BUT NOT AWAY LATTER IN LIFE IT WILL COME AND BITE YOU IN YOUR AZZ! TAKE A LOOK AT THIS!

This tomato know he's not on that level but hell 2 the no! A free piece of fruit! It is going to bust the peel off the fruit! Something will be sticky in a few juice will be flying everywhere but this is it !
Most know they is not on your level that's why they mess over you because they can't deal with real
they like to live in a dream world where they is the star! But to those selfish dicks who it don't matter if you a man dog or a female dog they both is a dog and now days men and women whore so much that one condom is not enough their body juice burn and bust any thing in it's path! MAN HOW LONG DID YOUR BOOTY CALL LASTED! As soon as you finish you look at them and say {MEAN NO HARM DON'T WANT YOU TO LEAVE BUT YOU CAN'T STAY HERE! LAST BUT LEASE
LOOK BELOW AND WHAT YOU SEE? 

   NO LOVE FOR A PERSON JUST A QUICKIE AND THEY DO THE LICKIE WITHOUT THE STICKY SORRY BUT BANG MY BRAINS OUT FIRST THE WE CRUISE TO PERFECTION HA HA NO QUICK MEAL HERE YOU HAVE TO EARN IT! PEACE PASTORSVOICE!  

THINGS THAT PISS YOU OFF!

 

OK THIS IS A TENDER SUBJECT! YOU TELL ME WHAT PISS YOU OFF? WELL WAS IT BECAUSE YOU TEXT ME A PARAGRAPH AND ALL I TEXT BACK WAS ONE DAMN K? OR ITS BECAUSE YOU PLAN WAS TO GET TO WORK IN 10 MINS. BUT SOMEONE IS DOING 40 IN THE PASSING LANE AND THE OTHER ONE IS DOING 35! LADIES THIS RIGHT HERE IS SOME WINDOW BUSTING OUT WORDS HERE! WHEN YOUR MAN TAKE YOUR LAST $20.00 AND TAKE THE SAME GIRL OUT WHO TOLD YOU "I'M GOING TO GET YOUR MAN!YOU HAVE GUEST AT YOUR HOUSE AND YOUR MATE STARTS TO SHOW THEIR AZZ ON YOU! JUST LOOK BELOW TAKE A LOOK AND WATCH HOW THIS GET YOU! THIS PERSON THINKS THEY CAN WALK ALL OVER YOU AND GET AWAY?

See just because you are pissed off give this a try because some things you just charge it to the game

at the end of the day.Getting pissed off has its advantage. What they are here's one when some one screw you over that when your mind goes in over drive on how can I get this azz wipe back for the

crap it did to me? Whom let me think!

WOW WHAT A WAY TO END A BLOG! PEACE PASTORSVOICE!!