when pain ends and healing begins

 HEY to all out there who read this blog time to address a big problem this problem is when you pour out your heart and soul in a relationship telling your self that I will be true and change heaven and hell to make this right! And all you get is hurt! Why all the wrong men say the right things but all the right men never can get the attention of a good women and if he do get her she hurts him because she has been hurt! How can we stop this pain? All the women will say it's the no good man or some dumb shit like if you was taking care of home that would never happen. Well you be the judge and tell me what went wrong here! four women in 30years and all four broke your heart by destroying the trust you have for them woman number 1. Is up! You and this woman hit it off good all you want she want until she go to see mother and mother tells you to your face that as long as she come to my house there will always be another man here for her to see no matter how hard you work to get them the best that you have they still break your heart and you go to her mother's house and low and behold there's another man there! Woman number two you put rings on all fingers you put her in her own house you tell her if she wants to she can work each pay day you bring your whole check home and put it in her hands and what she do take your money and buy another man hotdogs at softball game buy him shoes with your money and you tell your self this stupid shit that she will change but all you get is more pain!

Woman three this one you and her did all together until you wanted better for the family now she steals all your money and smoke it up in crack! Steals you car and get it totally lost because she change the tag on back of car and get it taken by police and stay away for three months in a row but crazy you take her crack smoking azz back hoping it will change just a dream shit don't happen that way! Now back to the last woman! Woman number four! Never worked one day in 16 years all the best that you can afford never had to worry about nothing now you move and she gets a job never smoke weed before but now she smokes never drank a drank in 16 years but now she dranks never stay out but now she do hell how the hell can we as a good men deal with this shit when we can trust the one thing that at one time valued them self but now act just like the no good man that all talks so much shit about! When you figure this out holla back at your boy peace pastorsvoice!

CREEPING A BIG DOWN FALL!

MOST people think that having some one on the side is cool. But how cool is the one who is creeping when he or she is destroying many life's and all they feel is hell got what I want and damn who it hurt now don't get me wrong I don't blame the person who the creeper is with. Why? If that sorry azz person will do right he or she would not have there azz out there in the first place! People was taught always keep one on the side did anyone notice that the one who told you that bull shit never keep any one? Trust is the glue that keep relationships together not sex heck we know people who had sex one minute and leave each other the next! 

INTEGRITY IS what the creeper don't have why to creep is to think only how much you will have fun not how it look or how much pain and hurt you bring and all you say is this stupid azz phase "I'm sorry I didn't mean to hurt you!" If the table was turn you will tell the world how it was wrong! But because it was you doing it now the shit hits the fan! Now you look for people to just take your trust breaker and go on! Hell naw don't give them the freedom to boast how good of person you are when that should have been said before you took you sorry azz out there and creep! Don't come with this mistake shit why closing your hand in a door that's a mistake ! Hit a ball threw a window that a mistake ! Putting your bird or opening up your cat is not a mistake! That getting your groove on and trust me you knew what you was in for! No no break for you azz all you get is good bye! If you like to creep why would you get into a relationship? Just bang what you want to stay single and do what single people do. Hunt for the booty yes get on the prowl so if you get aids then only you will have it and the one who gave it to you! But no! You try to make good people play Russian rule-let but for me hell I don't like to play games like that hell I love me some ME and nope nope nope Me is fine and guess what you is not mine because you waste to much time being blind by all that creeping behind shit! My gain hell your lost! peace pastorvoice! Feel me?

in the fine print!

Whenever you talk about having kids, what's the first thing you think about? The pretty clothes. The cute baby shoes. Who will they look like? Have you ever thought about the fine print of having them? The things people just DON'T tell you about them. How whenever you buy something they automatically want the exact thing you brought? How is it that they have full control of what you thought was your life they come with and invisible fine print that only show up when time go on! At first it just wipes clothes and diapers! This is what you expect then the fine print kick in "FINE PRINT SAYS"  When you get in the store, don't think you will only spend what you wrote on your list, watch the three is just basic here comes baby food and toys colds and flu medicine then out of the blue it first birthday buy a cake to watch them mash it all on there face and you think that is so cute until some get on you and can't come out the clothes you and the baby is wearing! Now back to store not to but one new piece but two but when you see how cute the baby clothes is and you spend more!

Then teenager years oh boy aren't you in for awakening. They are more concerned about how they look and what is we in for these kid look like rainbow bright you look to see if this is still your child! Every day what come on TV they want to look like so you do your best and say come on let's go to the store! No fine print until you get in the store time you come around the corner BAM HERE THIS FINE PRINT COMES OUT OF NO WHERE! And you was still on the old fine print!" BUT THE NEW PRINT SAYS" caution they will want more then before then all of a sudden you look at that child and it's like they work for the money and all you do is hold it in your pockets look out the place called walmart come alive! But when the fine print is in front of you do you read?

  There is some words on picture and I know you miss because of all that yada yada yada! watch out you missed something! peace pastorsvoice! You are one if you fall for this!

hood to woods

Yes street life  love  A city that never sleep all the people and places to be involve with days and night fill with excitement always something popping to see the people flocking to a block party to the club in the spot where you know is hot! No time to sleep all this work is just for me swollen pockets boy I got this! Big faces get you in a lot of places where you can be on top because the block is hot! Oh dip just made a grand all this money in my hand my hood is good man let me make all this wood! To get this night over sell out and start over! This was my life me and my crew had to do what we do don't judge me because we cool we just live by the street rules! To make it big in this city is the American dream in my hood then you would have known what it mean! See we have bars on out place and you know that' my girl car but that has change no more light and sites in this city life was doing good in my hood now I find my self living in the WOODS! Deep in the south someone help me get out! Not the hood but the woods You will not understand you can take the man out of the city but you can't take the city out of the man! Oh boy here we goes deep in these woods where nobody knows!

Dark and spooky no light dark as hell at night and all these bugs is in flight in your nose and in your hair these damn bugs is everywhere! They bite you and suck your blood still fly off and show you no love crazy azz sounds all around! Full hood all good but to have me sacred in these damn woods! Out of the dark here it comes straight for you and I have no gun! Nothing but me and my  hand this sounds like a real azz cutting if it was a man closer and closer you here this thing run really really these woods is no fun! Not me I'm no punk to throw these blows with the best but to run hell that was my first guess! But all these things ran threw my mind what if a snake bite me or a bobcat might attack to a bear hell I'm there snack as fast as I run the sounds still comes close my mind and my body say hell you're done and this one just might come! Some light will make this right so I can at lease see when my bell get rung! All the bugs just singing because they all knew that this is a damn fool to be out here running in my woods! I saw a show that showed me just how it goes but at that time that shit was not on my mind all I can say that hood stuff went away because my feet was not here to stay! Finally some light!

Running by the creek fearing for my life! Nights is good in the hood but not in these damn woods! To my really bad scare a whole pack of deers was just standing there what the hell was I suppose to do when all this sound in behind you as the lighting flash dead on my azz was more deer to fear! And the more I scream just like a girl no one heard me I was in deer world ! After while it made me stop! Wait a minute deers do throw rocks deer don't laugh behind the deers was some men who started laughing went this began to see a black man scream like a girl running in the woods from a bunch of deers which they call their food! Hey I'm tough and can go with the best but dark azz woods and fast azz deers this is some mess! So I stay my azz in the house because I know that them deers is still out and about! Yes you can see from hood to woods is a hell of a life for me! peace pastorsvoice!